It Was My Time

Dreams

Okay, everyone has a dream, everyone tries to reach them and there are others that have the insecurity block that holds them back. The truth about dreams, once you are living the dream, you find out that it has their downs, you realise that you had sacrificed many important things and that you have completely changed.

Take me as an example. A well-known designer that popped from nowhere when she showed her portfolio to one of the greatest designer the world has, Alexandre Gèroux, with quite an attitude -it wasn't her day really- and having him begging for more. Alexander as charming as he is, offered all the help she needed to succeed and though she hesitated, she accepted having a group behind her and runways that were watched by a million of pretty famous people. 

Now, that's the part that makes you feel like a fairytale, doing what you love and having so much approval -with some disapproval of course- and just 'having the time of your life-. But suddenly you start getting a bunch of problems you weren't expecting at all. And everything turn so much like a nightmare that was hiding in a daydream. 

But then again, when you get lost in the creative depths of your mind and start creating the next portfolio, the nightmare turned to just a pathetic scratch that is totally invisible at simple sight. And then, when you see the runway and having such an amazing feedback, that nightmare disappear away. 

I've had so many times I wanted to just drop it all, and it's basically when I'm at my knees sobbing, when those dark "I should quit this and breathe." are the only words I know. But damn, it's pretty cheesy and used a lot but it's so true, every rose has its thorn. I stop and remember how it feels to plasm all my ideas at a piece of paper, and then seeing each one of them being wear by a model. What once was a proud achievement, it had turn to a relief, some kind of escape, or maybe someone saying "Everything you do is basically turn to gold" -or that's what Alexander always says.