Kissing Your Flaws

PROLOGUE

            I TRIED SO HARD to stop my tears from falling. My whole body was shaking, and I couldn't think straight anymore. Pakiramdam ko, mawawala ako sa katinuan. This is not what I wanted to happen to me! Wala ito sa kahit anong plano ko sa buhay!

I pulled my hair to hurt myself. I was so frustrated!

My period was a week late, and I have speculation that I'm pregnant. Fuck. I'm no saint! I did that thing once for fun! Because I was curious! And now that I am late, I took pregnancy tests earlier, and they came out positive!

Oh, God. I'm fucking pregnant. I'm pregnant at eighteen... barely standing on my own feet.

Walang ibang nasa isip ko kung hindi ang sasabihin sakin nina mommy at ng buong pamilya namin! I was always so high and mighty, and now... I'm here.

I looked at the entrance of the restaurant. The father of the fetus inside me came. He was smirking. He's happy that I called him to meet up after I ignored him for weeks because I don't want him to think that we're close just because we had sex.

"Yo, Kei! What's up?" he smirked at me. "Why did you call me for lunch?" he winked at me.

"Fuck you." I said. I couldn't stop myself from taking shit at him!

He promised... that what we did was safe. He said that he knew what he was doing because he tried it before me!

"Really? Where?" he chuckled. Tang ina talaga ng gagong 'to. Nanginginig na 'ko lahat lahat sa takot tapos tuwang tuwa pa ang tangang 'to.

"I'm not kidding around, Khalil." nanginig ang boses ko dahil sa emosyon kaya nabaling ang atensyon niya sakin. "I trusted you."

"What's wrong, Keinna?" He held my hand on the table, but I avoided his touches. I hate him so much!

"I agreed to fuck. Sabi mo, mag tiwala lang ako. I trusted you! Pero bakit ganito?!" Tumaas ang boses ko kaya napatingin ang ibang malapit samin.

I wanted to keep this a secret at first, but fuck! Kung ganitong sumisigaw na ako at may mga nakatingin samin, hindi ko na alam!

"What? Keinna, I don't understand." napapikit ako.

Biglang bumuhos ang luha ko dahil sa frustration. I don't know what to fucking do. I'm scared! Oh, God! I have no idea what to do. I regret opening my legs, fuck!

Nilapag ko ang bagay na kanina ko pa pinanggigigilan sa harap niya. Kunot noo niyang dinampot 'yon at unti unting nanlaki ang mata niya. I watched his reaction, and I saw how shock he was. He probably knew.

"I'm pregnant." Naiiyak na sabi ko. "Nakabuo tayo. Shit lang." I tried to wipe my tears, pero ayaw magpaawat ng mga luha ko.

He looked at me with his confused eyes. He's probably scared! He must be scared; fuck him! We're just high schools! Fucking graduating!

"Kei, paano nangyari 'to? I pulled out! Fuck!" halos hampasin niya ang lamesa. He's shaking now while gripping the pregnancy tests.

Mas lalo akong nagngitngit sa galit. Paano nangyari? Nakalimutan niya na ba agad, ha?! Gano'n ba siya kasarap na sarap noong nilabasan siya kaya halos hindi niya maalala kung paano nabuo ang nasa loob ko?!