unless i'm with you.

𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞 (𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮.)

Weddings connect two souls together in a bond that is meant to last a lifetime.

Lifetime sounds like a wonderful word - dreamy, romantic, promising. Jackson acknowledges that, but he does not believe in that phrase.

So maybe that is the reason why when Christine asked him when would be his time to be the main character instead of the best man in such an event like this, Jackson only smiles at the bride, who he has known since he was five and replies,

"Darling, you do know I'm not made for commitments."

If a passerby suddenly hears that phrase coming out of the famous singer Jackson Wang, it would sure be a big scandal in the entertainment industry, because it sounds like he is only interested in flings. In short-term things, no strings attached, no responsibility. However, Christine finds it not a surprise, because she understands what he truly means.

It is not that he wants to leave people after telling them he loves them, instead, he fears of being left behind.

He does not want to shove off responsibility, he wants to give them all he has, despite his crazy schedules.

He does not believe in forever, because he thinks the term is indefinite.

In Wang Jia Er's dictionary, "forever" is an abstract word.

You see, there is no exact number for forever. None. Let's say if somebody tells you they would love you forever, and one day they tell you "I've fallen out of love with you.", what would you do?

Maybe that person has already loved you with their "forever". Maybe by then, you'll realize that "forever" does not mean this lifetime and possibly beyond that, but it only means the time that their heart still beats for you. After that, "forever" ends.

The Chinese have a term called "好聚好散", by which Wang Jia Er has learned long ago since high school. The phrase simply means when the relationship started happily, the following break-up between the two people sometimes can be smooth just like how it began. Not all goodbyes have to be filled with anger and harsh words throwing at each other, and he knows this by heart.

However, sometimes they are the hardest. Cutting the knot as gently as to how you tied it in the first place sounds peaceful, but that only works when you no longer have feelings for them. When you still love them, the peacefulness does not come easily, and you will not be able to move on, because psychologically, you have no reason to hate them. Or to push them away.

And that is how Jackson knows it does not work for him - because once he loves someone, he knows there is no way he will be able to turn back to square one.

Christine does not show any surprise, instead, she adjusts her bridal veil once again and smiles to Jackson,

"Jiajia, you will meet the person who makes you believe otherwise."

To be fair, it is not Jackson who is unable to find interest in anyone. He did love somebody, indeed. It is just the fact that the person left him a long time ago, while Wang Jia Er still feels the same ten years later.

What is worse is that he never got the chance to let that person know how he feels.

Funny, isn't it? Songs topping multiple charts worldwide, millions of albums sold to music lovers all around the world, but nobody knows who the songs are for. The main character does not, either, Wang Jia Er believes so.

So that is how he confidently wrote up the beautiful line,

"I see constellations spelling out your name."