Our Jinxed Souls

WHAT?

JACXON

3:50 pm,

after a session of silence, they've been staring at the stones and recounting them over and over again"this is so weird..., is this what she meant?, and is this why she told us to go here?" Asher asks over and over again, either frustrated of confused, Jacxon looks around the graves with no names trying to find clues to why did June told them to go there.. "what" he says under his breathe kneeling down on the grass, "Ash look" .. "what, what did you find?" Asher asks as he walks towards Jacxon, look behind the stone, their cause of death is written here" he says pointing out the little words carved on the stone, "this one died from suicide, their pair died from murder" Jacxon says his tone getting more serious as he reads, Asher quickly looked at the other stones, "cancer, suicide".... "suicide, suicide".... "why did every pair committed suicide?"... "look at June's" Jacxon says as Asher quickly checked it, "suicide" ..... "everyone from a pair committed suicide.... "what if all these people are just like us?, fated to die?, then the other died leaving the other to commit?" Jacxon tried to analyze, he looks at Asher who was already crying, he stood up to comfort Asher, "what if im the one who commits?" he sobs in Jacxon's embrace, "don't think of that for now, all of this might just be a hallucination of something, besides don't we have lots to do yet?, we still have till tommorrow, could be fun" Jacxon tries to comfort Asher in the hug as he rubs his hair, "can we find out parents" Asher says in the hug now sounding more calm, "sure" Jacxon says holding him at both shoulders leading them away from the un-named stones, he thinks about it, Asher committing suicide when he dies... Jacxon's months of even hours are being counted because of an illness, he got depressed about it and started overworking himself in the gym to distract his mind from the thought of him dying, but today if he's really going to die.... it's better if Asher dies first, he can't handle the thought of Asher seeing him dead, he likes Asher, but he refuses to confess because the day is still long, he can't risk the chances of loosing Asher once he find out.

They looked everywhere on the graveyard and their parents were nowhere to be found, "they're not here" Asher says now feeling more overwhelmed and is about to cry again, "maybe they were buried somewhere else?, why don't we go to the Asian market?, don't cry... it's going to be okay" he comforted Asher with another hug, Asher is more of a cry baby than he thought he was, his small body perfectly fits with Jacxon's muscled body when they hug, although Jacxon doesn't like it when Asher cries, he's kind cute, he thought, he looks down to see Asher's fluffy curly hair that's been tickling his neck in the hug, he can see his ears blush as he sobs on Jacxon's shirt, not caring for snot.

they sat down on a bench after Asher had calmed down "why are you so small?" Jacxon asks out of curiosity and did not mean any harm or any intention of offensing Asher, "i used to starve myself as a form of self harm when i was 12, im still on recovery but i think it's getting better now" Asher says.... "oh shit, im so sorry" Jacxon says realizing he just said something that might've made Asher uncomfortable. "relax, it's okay, that was years ago, ice cream and coffee used to be my biggest biggest fear food and i don't rlly remember why"... "so, how did you feel when you tried a sip of coffee?" he asks... "it was nice, i didn't know or believed that coffee can be sweet" he asks now sounding more calm, "why are you so muscled?" Asher asks, "self torture" Jacxon says in a straight voice, "i was diagnosed with an illness and my months are counted, so i overwork myself to distract me from the thought of dying young" Jacxon says as Asher held his hand for comfort, "well, everything is ending today, so you don't have to overwork urself for distraction, were gonna die anyways," he says rubbing the back of Jacxon's hand with his thumb, "should we go now?, these ghost might be getting mad at us now for sitting on their bench" Jacxon says and they laugh walking out of the graveyard not thinking of anything that had happen inside since they don't want to waste their day thinking of dead people.