Second Chance

22

Things were different. Rm and jin let the others join in. They all got better at dealing with walkers. This was a really good place. Electricity water and food. They were planning to make it their base. Bts survived so long before this cause unlike me they tried to stay at one place as long they could.

But i couldnt. They were getting too familiar with me. Maybe i opened up a little after the whole soju incident on the first night. They would call me noona even though i correct them. I let them be. Laughed at their antics and played along.

I went up to the roof. I could see them from up there i smiled as i looked down. Bts were so close. They were more than family. I silently stated as i sink in realization. What am i doing? Playing around with them its so obvious i dont belong with them.
Somehow i will always be a outsider.

My smile fades at my thoughts.Jk notices me and waves. Jimin sees and does the same. I force a smile and wave back. I tried my best to avoid them and i ended up meeting them. All my anger had dissipated away now that i knew them not as the bts idol but bts as seven people who were a family. I liked them. They were good people. I couldnt imagine them being separated or hurt.

In just few days they welcomed me. They were caring in their own ways. And somehow i cared for them too. That scared me. I only wanted to be like the rain that suited sad people. So when its gone the clouds clear up leaving rainbows in the skies.

So i decided to run away. I found some clothes from some guest room left behind. I washed them. I took few good ones. I stole little food cause jin noticed yelling we had mice problem. So i took only biscuits so seem like it was mice. My bag was smaller. I put my daggers inside incase i got caught like last time. Luckily it was jhope who saw me packing. I made an excuse saying i was arranging my emergency bag.

The reason i had to be so sneaky was my few attempts have been futile. I check before i try to leave. There was a morning look out. So i had to leave at late night. Once i so close but met suga.

Where are you going ?

None of ya business nosy brat.

You look very suspicious.

I-im going to the roof.

With your bag? Are you leaving somewhere?
Yin noona is leaving? - gasp jimin
Noona where are you going?-jk
Yin where are you going-jhope. Even jhope wakes up. Why are they all awake.
Oh is noona sneaking out-V
Who is sneaking out-jin
No one. Im going to the roof.
Oh really. Are you joining me to stargaze?-rm
Rm is holding some sheet and
blankets.
You look more like youre running away-suga squints his eyes.
I awkwardly laugh. Hahaha.
Keep dreaming sleeping beauty.
Even if you run away we will find you-V
Drag you by the ear-jin
Ill cry-jhope
Stop joking. I try to laugh it off but somehow they seem serious.
Gosh.Im just going to the roof. I quickly run up and rm follows. He spreads out his sheets and blankets. He signs me to join. Little chilly i go under the blanket.

Doesnt look like you came prepared to stargaze. Rm points to my bag. I take out one chip packet i had got ahold of. Jin was very strict about food storage.

I just brought food. I shake the chips.
Dont tell jin though.

Rm lets out a hearty laugh and turns off the light. Then i can see the thousands of stars. I hug my knees and stare at them.

Yin are you actually running away?
That brat was just trying to irritate me. I dodge his question.
You know we will come after you right?
Why? Why are you guys acting like that?!im suffocated to be honest. We havent left this place at all. Are you all gonna stay here forever. Im honestly feel like im in prison its... just too much.
Im sorry yin. We didnt think of it this way.
Its becomes quiet and i shiver a little. Rm senses and pulls another blanket over over shoulders. Its dark to make out his face.
Im scared of what might happen. Now youre one of us. jin and i were too protective of the guys and now of you. Jin and yoongi as the hyungs took it to do all the work. Its not they the others couldnt do it too. We stayed hidden so long as we could. But it only lasted so long. Then i figure if we had weapons but that failed. But you came and helped us. Now all of us are stronger we deal with any walkers that come here. But right now this place feels the most normal and safe we have ever gotten so far. And we just want to stay this way.

Im shocked as rm opened up.
I get it but thats not the same for me. Your normal has changed.
He doesnt say anything. I try to joke.
Are you crying ?
I was nodding. He laughs.
Oh i thought you were crying.
Not yet. I shift closer to him. Its warm and comfy.
Im sorry for yelling.I mumble. And for deceiving you all.
Ok now i am. He laughs. I feel a lump in my throat as i feel guilty. We slowly drift into slumber.