Teenage Problems

A New School Year

(A New School Year After Quarantine . . .)

After being in 2 years of quarantine, I can finally go back to school and have a normal life. I've always wished to have the best teenage life as possible. Drinking, drug using, partying, hangout out with friends, having a relationship. Though I was also experiencing my sexuality and gender. I knew I was bisexual so I kept it at that.

7:30 AM

Friday

It was kinda weird how my school district wanted the first day to be Friday, but I didn't care. My parents get to the school and we walk to look at the school board. I get my schedule and my parents leave. I was so fucking nervous. I walk through the large crowd of middle schoolers walking quickly as I could to my first class.

School Schedule
Advisory Class
First Period: Journalism
Second Period: Gym
Third Period: Science
Lunch Period
Fourth Period: History
Fifth Period: Math
Sixth Period: English

( Hours Later To Lunch Period . . )

Eating my lunch alone, yes, I was eating alone. Though I saw some of my old elementary friends, they wouldn't dare talk to me, I didn't mind because I had severe social anxiety. After a while, the bell had rang, I pack up my things and walk to my history class. Walking, I see her. .

( She walks past me as we lock eyes for more than 2 seconds )

I couldn't believe it. It was her. My old best friend. You might be thinking what's so special about this. She was my best friend in kindergarten and we haven't had seen each other for years. Every year I have thought about her, thinking she actually had moved to another city, but no, she was actually here.
I was so nervous, I wanted to talk to her so bad, but my anxiety said no and I just walked past her like we were nothing.

( Hours Past As School Ends . . )

What a boring day, I think to myself. I wish I could have tried to make at least one friend. Just one.

Once I'm home, I take off my makeup. Take a shower, and think of her. Thinking of all the things we could be. Thinking of love. But wait, I didn't even talk to her, the only interaction we had was 2 second eye contact and I'm already thinking of being in love with her? Was it love at first sight?

As I'm laying on my bed, I hear a scream from the living room.

"Oh my fucking god." I say to myself. They were having another argument. Hearing my dad's loud yells scares me. The stupid arguments they would have were always slowly killing me. As I walk to the bathroom, my mom yells at me for a stupid reason, as I defend myself, I obviously get yelled at for "talking back". I always think to myself why I could never be right for once. My mom is always angry and she decides to take that anger out on her own children, me and my sisters. After that, she goes into her room leaving me with tears on my face. I walk into the bathroom.

I grab a pin, and I slide it through my skin. Feeling the anger and sadness inside me feel relieved.

As tears roll down my face, I walk out of the bathroom, and quickly put on a long sleeve shirt.

Today was a hard day, but things will just get harder, as I fall asleep on my bed wishing that I could never wake up again.

Days Later

Wednesday, The Next Week

2nd Period
Gym

I walk into gym class to see both of my best friends from elementary. L and M. They were both talking. I was happy to see them again but I was way to nervous to talk. M talks to me, I talk to her back with a smile. L also joins in. We all talk about how we were doing after being in quarantine and what we should do this year. I finally had two friends, though they were my old elementary best friends, they were something and someone I could talk to.