Or so I thought~Phan

Chapter 9: The Change

Jessica POV

I stared in the mirror, face free of make up. The red tear stains were noticeable, since I had been crying. Dan, I loved him, but I didn't know how to love.

"Dan, I love you, I'm sorry," I whispered at the mirror. I should tell him.

'But he hates you!' My mind screamed back.

I quickly packed up my things, not caring about my appearance for once.

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I knocked on his door.

Phil opened it, his face scrunched in disgust as he noticed me. But, he was slightly confused as he saw my appearance. Still he kept the disgust.

"I'm here to see Dan," I whispered weakly.

"No, get out," He said harshly as he slammed the door. I flinched at the sudden sound. I slightly heard Dan call out to Phil. "Who was at the door, Phil?" My heart cramped as I heard the smack of a kiss and Phil's reply as "nobody."

I knocked again. Phil groaned angrily as he walked to the door.

"Please forgive me," I pleaded.

"No." With that the door was slammed once again. I whimpered, not caring if it was loud. I could hear Phil scoff at me through the door.

"I knew it wouldn't work," I whispered to myself, choking on a sob. My love hates me and so does his friend. Yay.

"Phil? Who was it this time?" Dan asked again.

"Same person," he replied.

"Who?" Dan persisted. "Jessica," Phil mumbled.

I almost broke down when I heard Dan's reply: A growl mixed with a snarl. "That -insert swear word-."

The door flew open to reveal Dan, an angry one at that. "What are you doing here, Jessica?" He asked, saying my name as if it was a disease. A nasty disease.

I winced, but stayed where I was. I was looking down, knowing I would burst to tears if I even looked at him.

"I-" I started. "I don't care, nevermind!" Dan yelled. A tear ran down my face and dropped onto the toes of Dan's shoe. He didn't seem to notice.

"Why did you do that? You never cared for our relationship! I proposed and you said no and you didn't love me!!" I flinched at what I had been.

"I'm sorry," I croaked.

"No your not!" Dan yelled. "You would-"

"Yes I am!" I screamed, looking up for the first time. I finally showed him my face free of cosmetics, and how the tears littered my face. Dan seemed slightly bewildered at my appearance.

"I love you, Dan! I had some trouble realizing that, I know, but can you forgive me?" I pleaded.

(A/N: Lol, I'm listening to Prayer In C while typing this xD)

He seemed skeptical. "You broke my heart. You ruined my day that was supposed to be special," he spoke rather calmly,"and no, I cannot under any circumstances forgive you."

And with that he closed the door.

I found myself staggering backward in a daze. I hit a wall and crumpled to my knees, thinking about the past events. o
I choked on a sob, then another, and soon I was in tears. Sobs rattled my slim figure I had shaped due do anorexia.

I couldn't move, nor could I talk. All I could do was cry.

'Cry? For what? The shock of him rejecting you? Didn't you expect this?' My mind asked confused.