Winter In The Shade | Sirius Black x Female Ravenclaw Reader

III

Regulus' eyes opened immediately at the mention of his brother. With furrowed eyebrows he stared at you deeply "What?" he asked cautiously, his mind still registering your question.

You moved to sit closer to him, knees touching as you looked for his eyes "Sirius," you repeated "Can you tell me about him?"

He stayed in silence for what felt like hours, his eyes hardened as you saw him put his walls up again. It didn't come as a surprise to you that he closed himself at your question but now you wondered how sensitive the subject was for him to be looking at you the way he looked at everyone else.

"Why do you want to know?" he asked with pursed lips. He crossed his arms over his chest, his gaze so hard over you that it forced you to look away from him and down to your lap.

"I- well, I know you are close to him but you barely talk about him. Actually, I think I've never seen you talk to him." you explained, hoping he couldn't read you and see that it was more than just mere curiosity.

"We're not close." he said sharply, his voice bitter.

"Oh... okay." you nodded, playing with the grass underneath you "I just assumed you were." you said with a smile, trying to get him to relax as you changed the subject "What do you want to do over the weekend?" your arm moved to nudge his side, a playful smile on your face.

"What do you want to do?" he asked back, the ghost of a smile on his lips.

Your heart broke as you stared at him, his eyes void as he tried and failed to put on a smile for you, you knew you had killed his mood for the time being and you felt terrible, your own smile falling as you shrugged your shoulders "I don't know." you mumbled "I always choose, I thought you'd have something you want to do."

Regulus didn't move and you thought he might be just thinking. With your head low, you missed the way his eyes stared down at you, watching the way you thoughtlessly played with your hands as you waited for his answer. He knew you better than you would like to admit, you were never one to keep your head low. You felt bad for asking him about Sirius, retreating to the world inside your head so you would do no more harm. And he felt the knot in his stomach tightening for how he reacted, how his reaction affected you; but still he couldn't help it, it was second nature for him to put his guard up at the mention of his brother. He wanted to tell you to never ask about Sirius again, that no matter what you heard he wouldn't talk about it but he could see you were already overthinking everything you had done since the question crossed your mind. He said nothing and just appreciated the fact that you stayed with him and that, that's what made you different from everyone else. Even if you didn't understand why he reacted the way he did, even if you didn't know what had happened between him and Sirius, you didn't push it and you stayed when you could have easily walked away like he had seen you do with others when they stepped out of line. You stayed with him, and even if he wanted nothing more than to get up and leave, he stayed there with you. You stayed for each other.

"I'm fine with anything you want to do." he told you after minutes of silence.

Your head rose up in surprise "Really?" you asked with a small smile.

He nodded, his face relaxed "Really." he said, turning on his side as he started to get on his feet, your eyes following his movements closely "I have to go and get something from my dorm. Wait for me here?" he said.

You nodded and sat back as he started to walk away, your eyes suddenly falling on the small group of people a few meters from you, all of them laughing and running around, nothing out of the ordinary but you stared too long. They must have felt your gaze on them, the one wearing glasses and a permanent smirk turning to the one at his side, patting him in the shoulder as he motioned his head towards you.