I'll be your Nightlight | Jaywon ff

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First, let me tell you about the past confessions to Jay. There were A LOT! Boys, girls, younger, and older all of them have confessed to Jay before but Jay only replied...

"J-jay-ah... I likeyou!"

"Sorry. I don't"

"Jay-hyung... I-I like you!"

"I don't, sorry."

"J-jay...I-I like you"

"Sorry. But I don't."

Jay never accepted anyone. Despite that a lot of people still confessed at him but still his answer never changed, so what makes Jungwon special, what's the difference between them?

Jay was confused and didn't know how to respond this time so he just stuck to what he always say... but something was different...

"I'm sorry, please let me think about it first."

"O-of course. T-take your time." Jungwon replied with a sad smile.

The peeping-toms saw this scene and was worried for Jungwon as he seemed sad. They saw Jay leaving and they hurriedly went to comfort their friend, while Sunghoon went after Jay.

"Seongie, what happened?" Sunghoon asked.

"I-I don't know." Jay said as he sighed.

"What do you mean, you don't know?" Sunghoon said confused.

"I-I'm still confused about my feelings towards him."

Sunghoon understood his friend but he was still worried about the other, because his love seems genuine.

"I understand you b-but you need to resolve your feelings right now or else the both of you will just end up hurting." Sunghoon comforted his friend.

Sunghoon was right. If Jay doesn't resolve his feelings right now it might hurt the two of them. After talking for a bit they decided to just go home first, so that Jay will have time to figure out his feelings.

Jay arrived at home and went straight to his room on the 4th floor. He really is damn rich! Jay was thinking about Jungwon so much as he didn't notice his mom entering. His mom tapped him. Jay was surprised.

"Ahh! Oh...mom you surprised me."

"What were you thinking about baby boy."

"Mom, I told you to stop calling me that." Jay displayed an annoyed face.

His mom chuckled. "Why baby boy, you're my only baby and you'll stay a baby in my eyes forever. Even if... you get married." His mom waved his eyebrows and smiled. She hugged Jay and asked him his problem as he was spacing out before.

"What's the matter?"

"Uhh...It's nothing."

"Tell me, it's okay."

"There's this guy...h-he confessed to me..."

"And? Do you like him?"

"I-I don't know...all I know is when I'm with him I-I feel so comfortable and I feel like everything is possible."

"Then, follow your heart. I know it is hard, but you need to let go of the past if you want to be happy with him. Even if you can't, if he's really what you're saying he is then he will help you overcome every obstacle in your life." His mom smiled softly while giving him a kiss on his forehead. "Think about what you really feel. Don't think about anything else, just follow what you really want." His mom left the room to give Jay some space to think.

"What I want....." Jay muttered to himself. Jay was conflicted, he doesn't know what to do. It's his first time experiencing such a thing. Jay thought about it whole night. "Is Jungwon the right person? Will he hurt me? What if he doesn't want me anymore? What will happen then?" Jay kept repeating these questions on his head. Jay suddenly remembered a boy in his childhood. He was even more confused. His childhood friend looked like someone familiar...and that someone is... JUNGWON? Jay kept thinking and thinking about it till he fell asleep.

.

He was now in school but he still looked like his body left his soul. Ah! I mean his soul left his body. Sunghoon noticed his soulless friend and tried to put his soul back but he failed.

Jay was like that for the entire day, and after school he just went straight home without even talking to anyone even his friend, Sunghoon.

Jungwon was disheartened by Jay's behaviour as he thought Jay already rejected him. Tears were forming in the corner of Jungwon's eyes but he stopped it. Jay hasn't rejected him yet so he can't lose his hope yet.

Jay continued the same routine everyday for four days and it was now Friday and it seemed like he has decided. He met with Jungwon at the school garden after classes.

"Jungwon, I have a question to ask you."