Painful Pleasure

Høpe

Under normal circumstances, it feels satisfying

Under others, it's unsatisfying

Causing pain, a pain that reverberates

A pain that unexplainably reiterates

You know the feeling but the thought -

You know what to say but how to say it-

When does it stop haunting you

When do I stop hunting it rather

From time to time it disappears

After a little while, it all comes rolling back

It hurts but silence says it all

It kills but who will hear me

It destroys but the question remains who cares

All they want are things that favor them

I mean everyone does

Blunt things, you are an antagonist in your own story

There is hope;

Hope that they don't know

Hope I long reach for

Hope that comes with a trial

Trail without Hope, you are gone

Speaking of things gone: emotions

Emotions unyielding loud

Laughter, cries, that gaze- emotions

I don't taste it

I don't taste it

"Why all these happy faces?" I ask

Why are all these who 'cruise'

What am I doing wrong?

Only for me to find out everything

At this point, I might just give up

But wait NO-

There is HØPE.