I woke up feeling like things are going to be okay...but it isn't. Things are not okay. On the 8th of November this year, things were...bad. And I'm NOT allowed to speak about my problems about the providers cuz it'll "get them into trouble".
(To myself)
Tell me why you're holding me back
Try to push me off the right track
And I'm wishing so bad you would leave me alone
Why you're blurring out my vision
So I could make the wrong decision,
But I know that you'll never be gone
I'm blaming you that I've been cruel and mean to all my friends
'Cause I've become so rude and now another friendship ends
But now I start to see clearer,
I saw your face up in the mirror,
Yes, I'm the one to blame.
That's why I bang my head against the wall
'Cause I don't like myself at all,
Wish that I could cut all the ties
And now my life is such a tragedy
'Cause I'm my biggest enemy,
I can't look myself in the eyes
It's I against me
I against me
I against me
I'm hurting everyone around me
And I'm regretting it profoundly
But I finally see that the reason is you
Another day, another struggle
Because I'm always causing trouble
And I hate what you're making me do
I'm blaming you that I've been cruel and mean to all my friends
'Cause I've become so rude and now another friendship ends
But now I start to see clearer
I saw your face upnin the mirror
Yes, I'm the one to blame
That's why I bang my head against the wall
'Cause I don't like myself at all,
Wish that I could cut all the ties
And now my life is such a tragedy
'Cause I'm my biggest enemy
I can't look myself in the eyes
It's I against me
Me against I
A tortorious battle, a one-sided fight
I'm willing to lose if it means that I win in the end
Now the war is on, as we both collide
I just hope I will survive...
That's why I bang my head against the wall
'Cause I don't like myself at all,
Wish that I could cut all the ties
And now my life is such a tragedy
'Cause I'm my biggest enemy
I can't look myself in the eyes
(It's I against me)
Bang my head against the wall
'Cause I don't like myself at all,
Wish that I could cut all the ties
(It's I against me)
And now my life is such a tragedy
'Cause I'm my biggest enemy
I can't look myself in the eyes
It's I against me
I against me
I against me
I was being mentally abused. Developing pure blind rage which is dangerous.
