3 years ago
~|Nobody pov|~
"Why are you always trying to push me away." He yelled at me "Kentrell look at me." He starred me deep into my eyes and I just couldn't bring myself to tell him that I was pregnant. He was out of control and I couldn't deal with it. Kentrell is 15 and im 15 we got together about 2 years go "Why are you doing this to me." "Jayda I love you. But it feels like I'on even kno yo ass anymore."
"Kentrell I love you too you just cant have outbreaks like this." "I take care of you and everything I ask you have you eaten so you don't starve yourself again I do everything for you." He said.
"I dont want to hurt you."
"I just want to know why you don't love me anymore."
"I do." He slapped me I held my face and looked at him in disbelief "Just know you will never find somebody that loves you like I do" Kentrell said before he walked out my house
Present day
I woke up to my boyfriend Devon being gone I felt bad because I do miss Kentrell but I didn't love him enough to keep moving on with him.
Im 18 now have A good paying job and a child her name is Kamira I had gotten pregnant by Kentrell while we were still on good terms so of course shes his child so Kamira goes over her fathers house every weekend
Me and Kentrell still talk were just not as close like we used to be.
We just found other people and i'll admit I was kinda jealous of his girlfriend but then I remembered I'm not his girl anymore so no reason to jealous right.
Devon my boyfriend told me that I shouldn't have any contact with my ex's but it's my child's father
Recently Kentrell started following me on social media and likeing my posts
"Devon" I was looking all over the house for him but he was no where to be found
Jayda: Where are you
Devon:Out
Jayda:Thats not what I asked
Devon:Get off my tip damn ill be back
He was really starting to irritate me he's always going out somewhere and not telling me "Kamira" she came out her room "yes mommy" "you hungry" "no" "Ariana will be over in a second I gotta get ready for work" She nodded and walked up to me "Wheres Devon" "I don't know he'll probably be back later tho" I picked her up and took her back to her room "You know mommy love you right Kamira" "Yes"
I swear she is the person I love the most but she acts just like me and I was bad as hell "You have to start being nicer to Devon" "He mean tho" "You see Kamira Devon helps us with house stuff and we really need that and i'm strong so I got this" "Ok" "I love you Kg" Sometimes I call her by her initials "love you too"
I kissed her forehead and left her room Ariana texted me that she was on her way me and ariana and I have been friends since 6th grade and she watches Kamira all the time sometimes I think the she like Kamira more than me
As I sat on the couch waiting for Ariana to be here Devon texted me
Devon:Jayda
Jayda:Yes
Devon:You at work?
Jayda:No why
Devon:Can I call you
Jayda:Devon I don't even know where you are
Devon:I need you to call in sick or something or tell them you'll be late
Devon: These police got me in custody. Cuz they found weed on me.
Is this nigga crazy, I told him not to do nothing stupid.
Devon:The money is in the safe up under the bed the code is 34176
I went to our room and looked at the safe I sighed and unlocked it
Inside the case was money a gun some bullets weed and some rolling paper I told Devon that it was no guns in the house because of how curious and adventurous Kamira is and shes only 2(Turning 3)
I waited for Ariana to get here and told him to get in the car "Care to explain why your telling me to get in the car and im supposed to be watching Kg" "Ill explain everything when we get going" I put Kamira in her car seat and drove off I handed Ariana my phone and he read the messages with me and Devon "So yo nigga in custody?" "pretty much" "Jayda" "Yea" "Kentrell calling you" "Answer it"
Ariana pressed accept and I put the phone up to my ear "Hello" "So your nigga got caught wit some weed?" "How do you know that" "Twitter" "Yea I gotta gotta go see him." "You have the bad influence around my daughter" "Kentrell look" "No im not mad I just want to clarify that if Devon hurts you or Kg he's dead." "Ok." I said and he thought he hung up but I heard him talking
"She dumb why she still fuckin wit a nigga she dont love? But was quick to drop me?" I hung up after that.
I do love Devon but I cant keep doing this with him
This is just like my relationship with Kentrell i'm just slowly going back into my bad state of mind and I can't have Kamira around If that happens
I just kept driving "You good Jayda" I looked at Ariana she could tell that something was wrong I had tears in my eyes "You want me to drive" "No i'm fine" "Ill drive pull the car over" I pulled that car over and got out Ari started driving all the way there I just cried silently
I couldn't seem to get what Kentrell said out of my head. It just kept replaying in my head I couldn't get over the fact that he was correct. I didn't love Devon anymore. Shit, he didn't even love me anymore.
It pissed me off that I still somehow love Kentrell. Well I wouldn't say love but have strong feelings for him that I can't seem to get past.
