"Khalil Im not ready for sex yet." I said as he forced himself on me. Khalil is my boyfriend and has been since 6th grade we had our first kiss in the 7th but we haven't had sex yet. Every time one of us would do something wrong we would just get back together because we were obsessed. I love Khalil but im just not ready for it yet. "We both virgins so we should take each other virginity. We in the 9th grade everybody done lost they virginity." I was only 14. "Khalil we should wait a little longer im scared." I looked down as I seen he balled his hands into a fist. He took a deep breath and reached out to lift my head up. I jumped back afraid.
"Why you flinch baby. I would never hurt you." Even though he sweared up and down he would hurt me physically, mentally he had me wrapped around his finger. Im so in love with this boy that I dont even realize the shit he do behind me. It takes my childhood best friend to tell me everything Khalil do and I don't believe everything Kentrell tells me but most of it leaves me speechless. "You dont wanna have sex because of yo lil side nigga huh?" He said raising his voice. I kept quiet I didn't wanna upset him more and possibly get hurt. I wanted better for myself Im too young to be getting beat on by my boyfriend and parents. I just wanted to get outta here.
"What did I tell you about not replying back Ki'Yohna?" He said as he kissed on my neck. "No im just not ready." I lowly moaned because he wasnt even supposed to be here. If my mom heard us she would be pissed. His hand slid into my pants and rubbed over my panties. He moved his fingers in a circular motion causing my knees to buckle. "For you not to be ready you sure want it." He whispered in my ear. He removed his hands from my pants but I grabbed it and put it back in there. I could tell this wasn't his first time doing this.
"Faster." I said as I felt him slip two fingers inside me. He sped up the pace and I felt a knot in my stomach. Khalil took his fingers out of me as we heard somebody walking down the hallway. "Go up under the covers." I said as he scooted over so i could cover him. My door opened and it was Kentrell. "My momma dragged me over here. So dont ask why im here." He said as he sat on my floor and went on instagram.
I felt Khalil arms wrap around my waist and I could tell he was mad. Khalil had a short temper so I knew it was only seconds until he got fed up with Kentrell being in my room. "Kentrell get out real quick." He looked back at me and stood up. "Why?" I pointed next to me and his mouth went into an O shape. He walked out my room and closed the door.
Khalil came from up under the covers and he look livid. "Why that nigga just busted into yo room uninvited? He couldn't have knocked?" I agreed with Khalil but he had to stop being to insecure I dont want nobody but him. "Calm down Khalil you hurting me." His arms were still wrapped around me and his grip kept getting tighter. "This is how I feel every time your with that nigga." I shifted because he was holding me to tight and I couldn't breathe.
"Im sorry baby I took it too far im sorry for hurting you." He said and let me go. I swear he can be so bipolar sometimes. I felt tears drop down my face as laid my head on his chest we laid down for a minute until I started to dose off. I woke up to hear people arguing it was Khalil and Kentrell and my mom was standing at the doorway. While they continued arguing my mom noticed I was awake so she practically dragged me out the bed and into the hallway. "You're fucking disgusting. I cant believe my daughter would be having sex at this young age." She said. My mother was only 28 she had me at 14 about to turn 15 and my dad had me at 19. So she was out here being fast so even if I was having sex which I aint she couldn't say nothing.
"You not even supposed to have a boy friend your supposed to focus on school and get a scholarship. But you out here fucking with two guys being a hoe." I just woke up I aint got time for her shit. "Mom I have one boyfriend and you know Kentrell is just my friend." She smelled like alcohol I wasnt doing this today. I watched as Kentrell walked out my room and went downstairs to sit on the couch. My mom went into her room after yelling at me and I just stood there. I seen my little brother and it broke my heart to see him have to see me go through this. I know he looks up to me as his role model and I really gotta step it up for him so I can get both of us outta here.
Khalil picked me up and rubbed my back I felt my self start to cry. "Baby please dont cry. Im sorry. I'm just fed up with that Kentrell nigga." He closed my room door and cut the light off. "That's the thing Khalil. Why couldn't you just have held your temper and did this later. You know your not supposed even be here!" He put me down and I took my shirt and pants off. He took his shirt and pants off we laid in my bed. "I'm sorry baby how many times I gotta apologize?" I was on my phone and he was on his next to me. "Until you actually prove yourself and get your anger under control." He made me face him and kissed my forehead. "I'll do it for you ok?" I smiled, "ok."
