"Kentrell every time you gone I get calls about you talking about the shit you did then you just come back to me and say everything fine. You fuckin lie to me damn near every day." I was so close to saying fuck it. Im tired of giving him chance after chance. "Whatever man go worry about Khalil." He said as he brushed past me.
I wasn't even about to argue. Me and Khalil been texting recently because I found out his mother was sick and he told me he was having troubles with paying her medical bills so I took some money out of my savings and cover her bills for her surgery. His mother was also like a mother figure to me she loved me like I was her own and I was willing to do anything for her.
Kentrell found out not too long ago and as always had a attitude. "Kentrell can you get out my house. Im not trynna start nun wit you so please dont turn this into something it doesn't have to be." He nodded and left. Without out saying a word he walked out my house and got into the car. I watched through the crack of the window as he pulled out my drive way.
He already embarrassed me which I don't remember because apparently I got my pussy ate by some nigga at the club. Kentrell shot him and killed him in his car and dragged me out the car and I was butt booty ass naked. But I don't remember none of that so I can't really be embarrassed.
~|Kentrell|~
Ki'Yohna was doing way too much. What I do doesn't involve her or has anything to do with her. I was planning on going back to her house later just giving her time to cool off. Ever since shes come back into my life I've been able to sleep through the nights I haven't really had any suicidal thoughts. She even makes me feel better when I start to think about my grandma. I'm tired of fighting wit ha ass every damn day.
"Fuck." I said as I sat at the red light. I need to stay out of trouble. Stay low too because that nigga at the club is dead and I seen that nigga on the news and they looking for his killer. Ben and them keep calling or texting her when I do sum bad and she just gets mad at me. They need to realize that she dont need ta know everything I do. Shit she try to beat my ass once when she heard I was out drinking and popping pills. When I say she was pisses the fuck off she made me throw up everything. She aint talk to me for the rest of that week.
I got to my house but I aint get out the car. I just sat there thinking how im gon change. I gotta be better for my baby and my girl. I gotta get my life together for the better mane for real. I cant even sleep without overthinking and shit. I really want this pain to end but I gotta think about the people it can effect. I cant ever just think about myself. It's always "What you do affects others, not just you." Im tired of worrying about other people.
For once I wanna just worry about myself and my own consequences. I opened my dresser and pulled out some weed. I rolled me 2 blunts and just smoked my problems away.
~|Ki'Yohna|~
I need a way to get fast money. Like I need to be a stripper. I can make hella money in one week then working a 9 to 5 and getting minimum wage. Kentrell texted me to come over. I swear we is so toxic.
Kentrell needs to lay low because if he go to jail that's a wrap. He not getting out especially if they find out he was intoxicated.
But I can't stay away from him for long because I start to feel lonely. I got Kamira some clothes on and got her in the car. On the way there I stopped and got my baby some breakfast.
I twisted the knob knowing it was locked. But surprisingly it was open. I was creeped the fuck out because Kentrell is very cautious and never leaves his door unlocked. I put Kamira stuff together cut up her pancakes and poured syrup on it. I cut the tv on so she wouldn't just sit here in silence. I went upstairs to his room. "Kentrell?" I didn't see him in there. Suddenly I felt my soul leave my body as I heard Kentrell whisper in my ear and his arms wrapped around me. "Take these off." He tugged on my shirt making me take it off. "Kamira downstairs we not doing this." I can tell he was mad but he also looked mad zooted.
We went downstairs to see Ben and all them bossin up on my baby. Kd lightly tapped her head and she fell. Once she seen me and Kentrell she started bawling out crying. "Kamira stop crying and show them why you got my last name." She got up and hauled ass at all of them. She specifically targeted Boomer tho.
After they was done we had decided to go out to eat around 6. I didn't feel good so I excused myself to the bathroom. I threw up. I wonder why I was throwing up. I didn't eat anything bad because I been eating in the house these past weeks.
I brushed it off and went back to our table. The food was there so we ate and paid. I got in Kentrell car and we all headed back to his house. I suddenly felt outta breath and I wasn't even moving. "Stop at CVS real quick." I told him. I got inside and grabbed 3 pregnancy tests.
I didn't really think I could be pregnant though because I haven't gotten nutted in. We got back to the house and Kamira and Hope(Kd girlfriend kid) went to go play. Kentrell and them was in the kitchen smoking and I went upstairs to go take the tests.
If I was pregnant then ion think it's Kentrells it might just be Devon's.
I took the tests and waited the 5 minutes. I was scared because I couldn't financially support another child. And i'm finna go to college so I can't have another kid. I'm only 18 about to be 19 with 2 kids.
I peaked at the first one and it was negative. That gave me confidence to look at the other 2. One was positive and one was negative. I'm guessing that mean I ain't pregnant. I wrapped the tests in toilet paper and stuffed it in the trash.
I was glad I wasn't pregnant I couldn't deal with another child. I got my clothes and hopped in the shower. Then I went downstairs to get Kamira.
"Tell everybody goodnight baby." She laid her head on my chest until she made eye contact with Kentrell and got off me.
"Daddy. Can you put me to bed?" He kept a straight face as he told her cmon. 5 minutes later or sum like that he came into the room I was in and kissed me on my forehead.
This weed done did sum to the real Kentrell. "I know ya ass aint sleep." He said as he scooted me over to get in bed too. "What you want?" I said looking up at him. He was just so handsome issa crime. "You pregnant?"
The room went dead silent with that, "I'm not." I seen him nod his head and go to the dresser. "I love you." I said. "I love you too."
