The My Illusion

IV

Chin-Hwa pov

~Past tense~

"The alpha and omega persona is usually expressed starting from the ages of 12 to 14. Once the personas are expressed, an alpha can and will start producing alpha pheromones, while an omega starts to produce omega pheromones. Along with these, both alpha and omega develop the ability to detect other pheromones." The teacher said as I sat in the front row with bandages around my neck, from my mother's drunk choking. looking forward with a tired neutral expression I listen to her as she continues teaching the class.

"The more dominant a person is the stronger the pheromones that person can release, It also means that the person has an exceptional ability to detect others' pheromones." she said still looking at the class she asked again "Everyone understands this, right?" glancing around I see everyone nodding their head and some saying yes ma'am. looking back at the teacher I gave a small nod and she went to continue.

"Today's medical test will let you know if you are an alpha, an omega, or a beta. Now some of these personas have already come to some of your friends, but it is important to make sure. And for most of you, to prepare yourselves in advance." looking around she went on "and especially for omega's who need to take inhibitor drugs to regulate their heat cycles. However, when your heat cycle arrives unexpectedly, you should stay at home and take rest, and also...."

Looking down ignoring whatever she was saying, I watch my hands nervously play with each other knowing, and wishing I never get omega 'because omega must suck and mom would beat me harder and dad would beat on her for giving him a weak child.' Looking up I see everyone getting up, and pushing their chairs in I followed along since I didn't listen to the teacher. Making my way in a line with the rest of the children, my heart pounding hurtfully in my chest I look down playing with my hands, and started walking to the testing room with the other children my age.

Chanting in my head please be a beta over and over again, while the examination was undergoing. When it was over and done, we all made our way back to class and resume teaching while they continue their work so they can give us the results.

When it was the end of the day, the teacher came forward with everybody's results and handed them all individually. looking down slowly at my paper begging for it to say beta in my mind.

None, Normal, Omega

'It says omega....' when I looked again thinking it was going to change, it didn't change...It felt... It felt like my child-like heart fell to my stomach. Shaking in fear I wanted to cry, and I didn't want to go home because I knew my father was there since he only works at night and since my mother isn't home to get beaten by him it would all be directed towards me, with or without a filter.

Making it home to this somewhat modern style house, opening the door and taking my shoes off at the steps, and saying with a timid I'm home. 

Hoping my father left to get something, but all my hopes die when I see his shoes plus heard him telling me to come here in a rough and almost sounding intoxicated voice. walking towards him, and facing him I kneel and sit on my knees and legs looking up at him with no eye contact because of fear, my hands are in my bag as I grab the results knowing the teacher called, and handed them to him with my mouth tightly shut...

All that you could hear, as he was reading the paper over and over again was the fish tank we had in the not-so-family room. 

Looking down in shame I hear him sneer with disgust, I felt him glaring at me with so much hatred and disappointment that it felt suffocating "LOOK AT ME!" he yelled, quickly looking back up I flinched when I met his eyes and he went silent again.

Trembling and shaking as his voice went to venom when he started talking. "An omega? I thought this disappointment of a son was a beta for sure..."

 sweating I looked down at his shoulders so I didn't have to look at his face. "Tsk... you're even part recessive.... you're dumb, and you didn't even get a good single thing that you're supposed to be good at." clenching my pants tightly knowing he could say worst "even if you were a beta, how would you get married? hmm, you good for nothing boy...."

I was only able to think as he walked away to get his whipping stick. 'It's not alright, it's not fair, I don't want to be an omega'

~Present time ~

"That's right you're starting your heat cycle." said the doctor as doom hit me and it had to show on my face. "It's rare, but there are cases that are little to almost none when a heat cycle is only expressed during your 20s. It is usually the case for recessive omegas. You must've recently met a powerful alpha witch triggered your alleles to be activated."

blankly looking at my lap with disbelief 'nonsense...' was the word that replayed in my head "it's going to be difficult for you to get pregnant, and there's a high probability that your heat cycles will be irregular. I'm assuming you never really had the chance to learn about inhibitors, so you should look for some that are compatible..."

~Time Skipp~

Crying was all you heard in the shin's household as I kept wailing my eyes out in my oversize bunny hoodie and fluffy pajama shorts. "Haa..stop it, you oversized bunny crybaby!" Shin shouted while chuckling. Looking at him with tears still falling down my face I punched him in the shoulder for taking amusement out of my suffering.

"I l...lived my whole life to this point believing that I would never get my heat cycle!! my entire life's ruined now! it's all gone!!!" 

seeing me cry and saying those words an ark mark grew on shins face and he yelled "are you saying that an omega heat cycle is going to "ruin" your life? STOP SAYING WEIRD THINGS!!" glaring at him "what the hell do you know, you're a lucky beta bastard!!" huffing "please no one believed your beta like characteristic anyway in high school."

Groaning and flopping flat on my back I glanced at him "don't talk about bullshit I already know!" he looked at me and rolled his eyes " so how long are you staying because my girlfriend hates it when you stay over,

"Aw~ please it's just for a little while, I'll leave when Wonyoung let me back inside the house."

" haa...alright..just for a short while, okay?" jumping up and down yelling yay too loud the neighbors probably heard me. 

I see him get up and rub my hair just to go into the kitchen and make us some food. grabbing my phone I look for Wonyoung's number and asked when can I come back. no response was given so I went to work on the book I was writing and watched as the hours goes by...

hello people I'm sorry if this seems rushed bc it is I got lazy and didn't feel like typing anymore but ill edit maybe longer next time