forced to be a little

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This chapter (and maybe the next ones) is going to be about Taehyung's past and how he used to live with his abusive mother and a small 'connection' he had with little space

TW:
This chapter will include talk about su1c1d€ and self harm

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*beeb* *beeb*

It was finally Friday, Taehyung's favorite day, the last school day and then weekend

He got up to get ready for school he did his usual morning routine after he got he's bag ready he walked into the living room

Okay..you can do this..

On the side of his eye he saw his mother on the kitchen drinking a cup of coffee "good morning" He said smiling "mmh..morning, don't be late" She said and got another sip of the coffee

"I won't" He said and left

"Okay, today may be my lucky day! I did all the homework and I also got some money, if everything goes well I will trick myself!" He thought while walking to school

"On the first period..math..okay good.."

Taehyung walked to his class only half of the students were there since it was already early, he sat on his usual sit near the window he got out a note book he had and started sketching

"Heh.."

He really likes to draw

Come on..stop giggling you look even more stupid now.. He thought to himself

Close it now before someone picks up on you

After 10 minutes the class started it was okay so far Taehyung gave the teacher his homework he was really proud of himself for doing so

Everything went well until the 4th period, Taehyung went into the bathroom were he saw some boys smoking cigarettes he ignored them and went to do his business but those boys just wanted to mess with him

"Hey pretty boy~ what's up?" One of them said getting closer to him "eeh- please leave" He said walking away

"Huh why? I thought you were gay" He said grabbing him by the waist "get off me!"

"Awh little baby you gonna cry now or what?" One of the other boys said

"Stop you mother fuck-" He got cut off by a punch on his stomach "eh–"

"Can't you fight little guy?"

It kept going like that, all four boys went over him and started punching him non stop until the bell rang "we gonna be late for class~"

"See ya later pretty boy"

And they just left him on the floor

Umm...

eehhh..

"I'm really tired..I wan 'eep.."

Taehyung felt really weird not about being beaten up tho..himself didn't know what felt so different from the other times he got beaten up right now he felt..he felt really relaxed..he couldn't move not at all, he loved that feeling but the next thing he knew was that he couldn't speak, did they beat him that hard to have this damage- he could only let out a few bubbles even tho he didn't bother himself talking

He just left himself on the floor for the next 20 minutes, after that he decided it was time to get up

I had to feel this relaxed for so long..i wanna feel like that again

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After the bathroom accident nothing more happened that day and Taehyung left school one hour earlier, it was good for him so he could go and treat himself as he promised

"One ice cream please..strawberry flavor" He said excited behind his mask "okay, here you are boy!" The kind guy said

When Taehyung left the coffee shop he sat a bunch and started  eating his ice cream

"Dumbass you did really bad today" He said to himself but I treated myself anyway...something inside me wants to feel like that
"Well I'm going to kill myself soon so..let me just enjoy this

After he was done he had 30 minutes to go home luckily it only got him 10 minutes to go home from the park he was at

He got out his keys and opened the door

"Good thing your not late..or else I would have kicked you ass already" His mother said while smoking a cigarette
"y-yes mother.." He said looking down "how many times do I have to tell you? Don't call me 'mother' you idiot, ugh I'm really embarrassed to be blood related with someone like you"

"Yes sorry..."

"Better now go to your room..I will leave in a few minutes anyway" She said looking away
"Okay.."

Taehyung went to his room fast "guess it's my lucky day"

He sat on his desk and started doing his homework after one hour he was done he then went over his bed sheets and took an old phone that he stole from his mom, since she bought a new one he got her old one

He went on google..

What it means when I feel really relaxed by being beaten up|

"What no I'm dumb"

Why i felt like a child?|

'Why I felt like a child?'

Age regression''''''

Little space, what is little space?"""

"What is all that?"

Taehyung clicked on the first thing that popped up 'age regression'

He read really careful what it was and didn't know how to react

"That's..thats definitely not why I felt like that I mean- I'm not that much of a freak ugh"

After that he deleted his sreach history something about age regression annoyed him..

"That's just- disgusting I am disgusting" He said angry with himself

He rested his body on the bed "oof..." "I'm really tired..of everything.." He said with watery eyes

He looked at his desk, there was a pin, he stood up picked it up and thought about it

"It's not like I haven't done this before" He said and the next thing he did was drawing lines in his waist, he did it for 5 minutes until he got tired

"Well..I don't have any friends and my mom won't miss me so..its fine I guess" He said putting on bandages

-time skip-

It was 8.00pm Taehyung went to take a shower, the water was cold really cold it was spring already but he likes when he once in a while has a warm bath, his waist kind hurts because of the 'incident' that happened but Tae did not mind

"Mom usually comes at 9.30..well she will just lay dead to bed" He said making some ramen for himself

"All this alcohol will kill her someday.."

Hope she dies soon...

Short chapter:D
Hope y'all liked it:>
I have a lot more stuff to write ooff hope I will get the time
I thought I posted this update a while ago guess not hehe
See ya soon❤❤❤