Innocent (completed but not edited)

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When I wanted to tell Happy I was a virgin and wanted him to take it my voice left and I was speechless on the sentence. so I figured I'd try when we were out of lockdown and was at my place where Happy lays his head half the time or when he doesn't want to be with anyone but me. 

it was roughly two in half weeks of us being in lockdown before we were able to go back to our everyday lives after the sons took care of the issue at hand.

In that time frame that I had up till end of lockdown, I thought of how I was gonna bring up the whole I'm pure.

I decided today gonna be the day I finally tell him and go from there. hopefully, lose my innocents and experience sex and all things associated with it.

I had watched plenty of virginity popping porn videos and did a whole lot of reading up to see what could possibly or would happen when my innocents is taken.

Now here I sit waiting for Happy to show up so I get rip the bandage off and move past my nervousness and worry with the horrible scenarios running in my head of the bad outcome.

When the sounds of his Harley Dyna filled the quiet air I shook the nerves from my hands and took claiming deep relaxing breaths. 

"I'm home Thai" he called out

"In the living room Hap" I replied

I could hear him messing about before he came into the living room.

"Hi baby" I greet lifting my head for a kiss which he gives me before he sits next to me and wraps me up in his arms and goes back to kissing me.

"Can we talk about something?" I asked

He pulled back and looked at me so I turned so I was siding sideways to fully face him and he done the same thing.

"what do you wanna talk about?" he asked

I nibbled my lip for a few sounds before letting it go and just spoke.

"I want you to take my innocents," I tell him

he looks at me a bit confused as if he didn't hear me.

"what?" he asked

"Happy I want you to take my virginity. I'm ready to get rid of it and I want you to take it" I tell him

 he gets up and paces a bit before he looks at me then walks out of the living room and out the door.

I sighed and fell back on the couch.

"he's making it seem like I'm offering some damn disease or something horrible and not something that's a perfect gift for a guy to have from someone he's with," I say to no one in general. 

I sighed and sat back up waiting to see if he'd come back and talk with me about what I just said.

When he didn't come back I gathered myself up turned off all the lights and walked out the door.