A Broken Heart With a Fake Smile

Thinking

*Thinking*
Ahh, yes. This has been happening alot here lately.
You see??
No one lives a perfect life.
But, yet we dream of living one.
Here lately, all I have been doing is *thinking*.
But, that's a battle field most people never survive.
So, what's the changes of me,a hopeless mess, surviving?
When this happens, when your lost and confused, or when your about to fall down, just simply shut all emotions off.
No wait, that's not the right way to go.
Trust me.
I've down that.
In the end, it's more painful than the beginning.
Some people say that thinking is good for you.
I say,it's a killer.
It seeps into your brain like tiny,invisible worm.
Once it's in.
It's never coming out.
You see?
Life isn't about being smart or dumb.
All it's really about, is seeing if you fight yourself when the time is needed.
Or if you'll just fall and fail. I
Just *think*.
What if, your whole life was planned?
What if, someone-somewhere sat in front of a type writer and just typed your life out?
You'll never know.
All of this, breathing-crying-self harming-laughing-reading-running-playing-YOU.
Could all be just within a type writer.
That would mean, for me, that some twisted up guy/alien-for all we know- is creating this disaster of a life-mine- in the depths of his screwed up brain.
But here's the real question.
Why?
Why would anyone sit here-there, just to create up this life?
So, you see?
*Thinking* for me leads to more *Thinking*-*Thinking*-to more *Thinking*.
Until I've finally had enough.
And that's when it truly gets bloody for me.
Or maybes that's just for me to worry about, and for you to fear.

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My friend Piper is always there for me when I'm *Thinking*. Ill never be able to truly thank her for everything she does for me. Without her in my life, I wouldn't be alive here today. Thank you sis. Forever-and-always. 24-7. I'm here.

Your the best. Really. Your always here for me. Left-right. I'm truly glad I have you as my best friend- sister. Without you. Ild be lost. Thank you sis.

Thank you. So much.
@be_Rebilous