THE AURA OF HATE [Editing]

FORTY - ONE

"Okay so Hazel is going to seduce Dane Monroe, who's the son of Vladimir Rostislav?" Ray asks me.

"Uh huh." I reply and Hayley chuckles.

"Hazel, it seems like you found your third occupation, seducer." Hayley says and I just shake my head.

"When is this going to take place?" I ask Xander.

"Okay so, Dane is opening up his new strip club tomorrow and you're going to be auditioning." Xander informs.

"ALRIGHT! HAZEL TO THE CLOSET!" Hayley shouts and gets up.

She yanks me off the sofa and drags me up to my room.

She pulls me in the room and closes the door.

"Hazel, why are you doing this? Why are you being really nice to Xander? I thought you hated him?" Hayley asks me raising her eyebrows.

"I do.." I replied.

"No you don't. If you did... this wouldn't have happened. You're seducing Dane Monroe for him." Hayley states and I ponder.

I mean she isn't wrong.

There's definitely something I feel for Xander.

I don't know what it is.

"Hazel, when can you admit... you have fallen for Xander Carrington." Hayley says and I stay in shock.

What?

Me?

In love?

With Xander?

"What bullshit is this Hayley? I am not in love with Xander." I make a point and Hayley sighs.

"Whatever Hazel. I know you well more than you know yourself... and trust me I see the look... the way you both look at each other... you guys are in love with each other." Hayley says and walks out.

Do I love Xander?

I move to the closet and move aside some clothes to find a small box.

I grab it and open it.

Pictures of Hayley, mom, dad, and I were lying.

"Miss you ma. Wish you were here with me to help me out with everything and my feelings." I grab the locket and pull it close to my heart.

It's been 18 years since ma passed away. Her presence still wanders but I regret that I couldn't hug her one last time. I couldn't say I love you to her.

I regret every single bit of it.

I put back all the beautiful happy memories and notice my dad in the picture.

But those beautiful happy memories get spoilt by a bad mistake.

And in this case it was my dad.

I move those thoughts and focus on my mission.

I grab a beautiful red lingerie and put it on the side.

I move to my bed and fall asleep.

•••

It's been 1 hour and I still can't get the thoughts out of my mind.

Hayley's words ringing my ears.

'You love him Hazel... when can you admit it."

"You both are in love with each other yet pretend to hate."

I grab my hair and yell.

I get up from my bed and grab my robe.

I walk to Xander's room and knock.

The next sight made my blood boil but more than that I felt as if someone inserted a dagger in my heart.

It was a blonde chick with bra and panties.

"Who is it?" Xander came to her wearing his sweatpants but stopped in his tracks as his eyes made contact with mine.

"Ha-Hazel." He says as he was left shocked.

My emotions are a mess.... I have to get of here.

"I'm sorry.. I'll come back later." I say and turn around.

"Hazel wait." Xander says as he grands my wrist.

I yank my wrist back.

"No... please, continue." I say, my voice breaking up.

I rush to my room but Xander caught up to me.

He grabbed my waist and pushed me into the room while closing the door shut.

He slammed me on the wall.

"It's not what it looks like." He says and I scoff.

"It doesn't matter... our marriage is a facade. You are allowed to sleep with whoever you want." I say and he lets go of me.

"So.. we're nothing?" He asks me.. his eyes full of hurt.

We are something more than friends.

"No." I reply and he looks back at me with a chuckle.

"So you don't feel anything for me?" He asks me and I shake my head in denial.

"Hazel... there's something between us. You know it." He says as he comes closer. I put my hand on his chest and push him away from mee

"It's getting late... I think I should sleep now." I say and look down. No interest in making any eye contacts with him.

"Hazel please." He says breaking down.

"Xander, I am not mad. I don't care about you sleeping with other girls and for the last time I have a long day tomorrow. I want to sleep." I say.

I look at him and he opens his mouth to say Something but shuts it up.

"Good night." He greets and walks out of the door.

"Xander baby... let's continue from where we left." I hear the girls voice making my anger skyrocket.

I grab the nearest lamp and smash it on the floor, shattering it into pieces.

I can't control my emotions any longer.

I slid down the door and let the tears fall from my eyes.

Why do I care?!

Why did it hurt when I saw him with someone else?

Why?

As more of these thoughts ran in my head.. more tears fell off my eyes.

By now I was sobbing like a weak bitch.

I walk to the bathroom and stare at myself in the mirror.

Red puffy eyes, dry tears, red nose and messy hair.

All because of Xander.

Because

I love him.