[Alison's POV]
As I was getting ready to go on a date with my boyfriend my stepmum Linda, called me down stairs, I never really knew why dad married linda she was sort of stuck up and she tries to be sexy, but honestly, it's gross.
I went downstairs and not to my suprise to see Linda being all sexy to dad because she wanted some ugly green purse. "Hey baby!" Linda yelled from behind her back. "Umm.... You called Me down here... So I guess you wanted something?" I said quietly. "Um yes, we need you to watch your siblings your father and I are goin on a date." Linda said, as if she knew I had a date to go to. "What? Woah woah wait your going on a date? I'm going on my date!" I yelled, making Linda flinch. "Oh well cancel or reschedule your date becuase were already ready!" Said Linda in a snappy tone. "What the hell dad! You both freaking knew that I was going on a date with Anthony!" I snapped Back. My dad turned around and simply said "now don't use that tone with me young lady! There must be a misunderstanding, Linda Said you cancelled the date and you were going to stay home." My dad said rather nicely. My jaw dropped as I was staring at Linda's beady brown eyes. "You may go on your date sweety we'll cancel ours." As I ran up to say a quick 'thank you' to my dad and hug him I stared at Linda, still glaring.
Then I ran out of my house to my white Mercedes, and drove off. Anthony never told me where we were going. As soon as we arrived to our destination, we pulled up to a little Mexican restaurant called "Trejos" there weren't many cars there, well first off they didn't have a proper parking lot but it was still a cute little resturaunt.
Anthony and I walked in and a small lady guided us to our seats. She soon took our drink orders, I ordered a simple margarita and Anthony ordered a sherley temple. "This is a cute little restaurant." I said awkwardly. "Hehe yea really somthing." Anthony said in a cute tone. "Um... So what are we doing after?" I questioned curious of what we were going to do. "I don't know love? I was sort of thinking a stroll around the park? A midnight walk?" He said curiously. "Yeah, that sounds lovely." Soon our waitress came and took our orders, I got two cheese caseadeas with rice and beans on the side. Anthony got a simple burrito with rice and beans on the side.
After we finished eating we went on a moonlight walk. It was perfect. He suddenly stopped and he turned to me "Alison, i don't think 'us' will work out..." His voice fell. My heart sank, I didn't see what was wrong with me, I thought he loved me. "But, I thought you loved me," i said as I felt my eyes burning and my throat tightinging. I felt like I was about to fall apart. "I do I do like you but, I wanna meet new people, I wanna be with other people..." His voice trailed off again.
The car ride home was super awkward and weird. When I got home I jumped out of the car without saying any 'goodbyes' and ran inside, as I ran upstairs I heard my dad say 'how was the date' but I ignored it. I slammed my room door closed, and that's when all of the suicidal thoughts began. 'Am I not good enough?' 'Am I too fat' 'am u too skinny' 'am I ugly.' As all of these thoughts raced through my mind I saw it sitting there, in my jewelry box, where I had left it. My razor. 'I was only 5 and a half months clean.' I slowly walked over to my jewelry box and took out the razor. I went and sat in my bathroom, (which was connected to my bedroom) sat on the floor, and began to cut once more.
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The Suicidal Girl
FanfictionWARNING: this story contains the following: cutting, eating disorders, suicidal thoughts. IF YOU CANT HANDLE, DONT LIKE THAT, OR IT MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE I SUGGEST YOU NOT READ THIS BOOK!! (Only warning!) Alison is a junior who has the perfect lif...