Her✓

Always been HER

I don't think I have ever felt this Kind of pain before. My heart hurts. It hurts so damn bad. Not physically. Not mentally.
It just hurts.No words can describe the pain that I am feeling right now.

Is this what a heartbreak feels like?

well what ever this it it's my fault I lift. it was me to leave her.

she calls him every morning and every night... Ambrose ignores every call every time for the past month.

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it was 11 at night that he was getting in from work. all he did was work, eat, sleep, repeat. then on the days he did have of he'd stay in the bed listening to the voice-mails River has sent him for that day.

she'd start with the morning call of saying Goodmorning, explain what she needed to do for the day and them wishing him a good day...

then the next call would come sometime in the middle of the day saying how her day was going so far...

and end with a night call wishing he was there with her, asking why he left her  where was he, did he really love her, and why won't he answer.

Ambrose sighs listening to your end of the night voice feeling the pain pierce through his heart. " I'm so sorry mi amor."

ambrose goes to take a shower lathering himself in his favorite soap. it was the one river got him for Christmas and ever since then he'd get that same one every time. he washes his hair. then rinse everything off his body.

he exits wrapping a towel loosely around his waist feeling refreshed. he sits on his bed grabbing his phone to check rivers social media until he says 10 missed calls and 20 messages for River.

he panics you never called him this much ever, well you did the day he left but that was different.

he quickly calls River back pacing back and forth.

pick up pick up pick up

after the 3rd ring she answers. all he could her is her heavy breathing like she's trying to breath.

"mi amor. breath for me, por favor." He says calmly dropping his voice a few octaves.

river takes ragged breaths trying her hardest to calm down. her mind was overwhelmed, he answered. he is alive. he is there.

"that's it, there you go. I'm here." He says taking a seat on his bed again.

"Why did you do this to me?" River finally speaks after taking several minutes to calm down.

"do you really love me... Ambrose?"

"if I'm being honest, I've never loved anyone as much as I love you. I never fell for anyone as hard as I fell for you. you're the best thing that's ever happened to me and I love you more than anyone or thing in this world." ambrose spoke honestly.

"then why did you leave me?"

"i- i dont really know. honestly I just feel that we needed some time apart. I needed some time away from you..." he confessed.

him seeing her with Jason took a toll on him. they've known each other their whole lives and also has been inlove with eachother but neither had the courage to say.

until he did. he confessed to Her. and ran away.

"Come back, please. come home to me. please." river whimpers over the phone. "we can start over."

His heart sped up it left like it was gonna leap out of his chest. he was ready to drop everything and come running home to you put he couldn't help but have his doubts.

"Why?" He questions, "why do you choose me?"

"because I'm inlove with you."

"you were just bored." He says doubting everything you've said to him what if it's a ruse.

" i fell in love with you. not because i was bored and needed somebody. not because i missed the attention, not because i felt like it. but because you gave me a reason to feel loved again. everytime i looked at you, i pictured my whole life with you. i want the stupid fights and endless laughs. i don't want that with just anyone, I want that with you. out of this whole world of people all I want is you. so don't ever doubt what you mean to me because you mean everything to me." river speaks lightly in a reassuring voice.

"now come home so I can kick your ass for making me through this pain."

ambrose chuckles shaking his head yes, "okay." he sniffles getting up from his bed quickly putting on clothes and pacing a bag. "I'm on my way mi amor."

"Okay my love, I'll see you soon."

he hangs up booking the first flight there.

all for her. I'll never leave her again. she's my one and only... I love everything about her, she smile, her confidence, the way her eyes sparkle...

it's always been

HER

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this wraps up HER...
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