The room of requirements
June 30th 1975 12:37 am
Narrators pov:
"are you for real" regulus whispered snuggling closer to James "what do you mean" James whispered back to his lover "I don't know I just feel like maybe I made you up" the younger boy said looking up at James. his James.
The green house
July 1st 1975 3:10 pm
Narrators pov:
"hey reg" James said pulling regulus into a passionate kiss "hey James" the smaller boy said pulling away and resting his head on the older boys chest "I'm gonna miss you this summer" James whispered holding regulus close "not as much as I'm gonna miss you" he replied looking up at James "well if you're gonna miss me so much how about you just come stay with me! how does that sound" "James you know I can't" regulus said taking a step back "why can't you regulus why can't you" "because my parents would kill me! Sirius would kill! can you imagine him finding out about us! Can you imagine my parents finding out about us!" "Sirius will get over it and besides he will have to find out eventually unless this is just a game to you!" James yelled pushing regulus away from him"James of course it's not a game to me I swear! I love you I promise I love you more than anything but I'm just not ready" regulus said with tears in his eyes and letting a few fall "oh baby don't cry I'm sorry I know you love me I shouldn't of started a fight not today" James said wiping regulus tears and giving him a tight hug "I'm sorry too but I'm just not ready to tell him or anyone for that matter and I know it's hard for you to but I'm scared to tell anyone but I promise I'll be ready soon" regulus said clinging on to James "I know darling I know" James whispered kissing regulus head
Regulus room
November 13th 1975 3:45 am
Narrators pov:
"JAMES I TOLD YOU I'M NOT READY TOO TELL PEOPLE" "WHEN WILL YOU BE READY REGULUS I'VE BEEN PATIENT WITH YOU BUT I'M SICK OF HAVING TO LIE TO MY FRIENDS JUST TO SEE YOU" "DON'T ACT LIKE YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE AFFECTED BY THIS! I HAVE TO LIE TO MY FRIENDS TOO BUT I'M NOT SCREAMING AT YOU EVERY OTHER FUCKING DAY" "YEAH BECAUSE YOU'RE THE REASON WHY I HAVE TO LIE TO MY FRIENDS! YOU'RE THE REASON I'M ALWAYS TIRED BECAUSE I HAVE TO SNEAK OUT TO SEE YOU! IT'S ALL YOU'RE FAULT REGULUS ALL OF IT" "ALL OF WHAT JAMES ALL OF WHAT" "MY STRESS MY PROBLEMS EVERYTHING" "IT'S NOT ALL MY FAULT YOU DON'T HAVE TO SNEAK OUT AND COME SEE ME EVERY NIGHT YOU CHOSE TO" "I DO IT CAUSE I FEEL BAD! I DO IT BECAUSE I KNOW YOU'RE PROBABLY CRYING OVER A NIGHTMARE OR BECAUSE YOU THINK I DON'T LOVE YOU! I DO IT BECAUSE YOU ARE ALWAYS UPSET ABOUT SOMETHING STUPID AND YOU EXPECT ME TO COME AND SAVE YOU" "I DON'T EXPECT ANYTHING FROM YOU ANYMORE! I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME BUT I'M NOT SO SURE ABOUT THAT ANYMORE" "WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN REGULUS" "IT MEANS EXACTLY HOW IT SOUNDS I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME I THOUGHT YOU CARED ABOUT ME BUT TURNS OUT I'M JUST ANOTHER NOTCH IN YOU'RE BELT" "OH PLEASE HOW COULD ANYONE LOVE A COLD HEARTED DEATH EATER LIKE YOU REGULUS" "WELL IF THAT'S HOW YOU REALLY FEEL WHY THE HELL DID YOU WAST TEN MONTHS PRETENDING LIKE YOU LOVED ME LIKE YOU ACTUALLY THOUGHT I WAS WORTH SOMETHING" "BECAUSE I THOUGHT I COULD SAVE YOU BUT SIRIUS WAS RIGHT YOU AREN'T WORTH THE EFFORT" "WELL FINE THEN GO RUN BACK TO MY BROTHER AND PRETEND LIKE I DON'T EXIST! LIKE YOU DIDN'T SPEND TEN MONTHS TELLING ME HOW MUCH YOU LOVE ME! LIKE YOU DIDN'T MAKE ME THINK THAT I WAS SPECIAL! LIKE I DIDN'T GIVE YOU EVERYTHING I HAD AND MORE" regulus yelled opening the door "get out" "reg i-" "get out now right fucking now" and with that James left leaving regulus to sit alone and sob in his bed
5:25 am
Narrators pov:
'are you real' this sentence holds so much meaning. This is a question when we've been hurt,bruised and betrayed again and again but finally meet someone who makes you feel so special that the hart refuses to believe it's true even though it's right in front of you. you're laughing together, getting happy at the smallest things and getting everything in a relationship that you've dreamt of but still you doubt if it's real. it's like a dream. but then again you are betrayed by that person who made you feel like that. so nothing feels real anymore.
Regulus doesn't know when James fell in love with him if he ever loved him at all but he knows exactly when he fell in with James it was his first year and James smiled at him and made him sit next to him and talked about random stuff the whole way to Hogwarts and then when they got there James gave him a big hug because he was nervous and ever since that day James had his hart, his mind, his soul his everything. Regulus can't get James off his mind for the rest of the school year he was just waiting for James pull him into a abandoned class room and kiss him and say how much he loves him and that he didn't mean anything he said then they would live happily ever after but that never happened James won over Lilly's hart and regulus joined the death eaters because after all blacks don't get happy endings.
AN: well this sucked but I had to make something in honor of the all too well short film because well it's absolutely amazing and I'm a Swifty and have been since I was 4 so yeah(also I wrote this after having a mental break down and I haven't slept in 26 hours so yeah)
