Me - You see a girl trying to jump off a cliff, you stop her and say let's die together, try ways of dying and tell your sad story to push her off of her goal only to tell her later that you never wanted to die? That there was no together? Or perhaps there was, a 'together' made out of pity. Pity for a homeless, orphan girl going through fights with the world and her own self....or maybe because you thought I was your SOULMATE?
Even in the dark, I can see the furrow in his brows. I did hit a spot. Now the question is ......am I right?
Jungkook - You think all the moments we had together were fake?
Me - I don't know, you tell me. This time make the lie even more truthful sounding because I don't trust you.
Jungkook - Truth is that I wanted to make you live, wanted to show you how wrong you were, how simple things were so complicated to you, how people like me die to be like you. Lie is what you were feeling, lie is what pushed you to think you're not worth of living. That night I promised a girl to die together only to make her live the life she deserves. I didn't know you were an orphan, I didn't know you had no one, I didn't know where you came from. I just knew we didn't keep meeting just for nothing. So I did what I had to do.
Me - ..........
Jungkook - We can't be soulmates, don't worry. Even if we are, I wouldn't anchor anything with someone who can't trust me. Who doesn't know when I'm me.
Me - Jung-
Jungkook - I don't judge you. You are right in some places, wrong in some. So am I. I shouldn't have lied and you shouldn't have said I pitied you. I never did. In fact I'm so happy that we met. A stranger who didn't know me, yet made me hear the bells.
Me - .......
Jungkook - What made me open up to you was that you didn't know me. Every single thing I said about me, is true. You gave me a fresh start that I needed. A start for what I left Korea. When your words matched with mine I knew you were coming back. So I don't really mind if you trust me or not, I don't really care that I lied....you're right here, breathing. What more can there be to want?
I feel petrified. I know he's not lying. Nobody can lie this much for someone whom they pity.
He's right again. I'm wrong once more.
Jungkook - Can you do me a little favor?
Me - What?
I almost whispered. I can't talk in my normal tone, my voice will crack.
Jungkook - Live. Give life a chance. You won't regret it.
Me - I have already.
Jungkook - *smiling* Thank you.
Me - I'm sorry.
Jungkook - Me too.
Me - No Jungkook, I really am.
Jungkook - I know.
Me - I trust you. I didn't mean it. I was not-
Jungkook - Is the hot head really apologizing to me?
Me - Yeah she is.
Jungkook - I know. I used it again.
Me - What?
Jungkook - Just like I told you I'd die with you....I behaved like you hurt me with your words just now. I wasn't hurt _____________________. I was just trying to make you understand. I know you didn't mean those.
Me - So......you don't hate me?
Jungkook - Why would I?
Me - You-
