Catching Feelings

let go

I spotted Myke sitting down at the spot we used to go every day at sunset to watch the sun go down, and took a deep breath to prepare myself to talk to him.

I've made up my mind. I don't want to be with him. I love him deeply, but he hurt me way too much.

I walked towards him and said "hey." He turned his head to acknowledge me and then stood up to hug me.

We pulled away and I noticed a small blanket on the ground, with a picnic set up over it

"Myke..." -I sighed- "What is this?"

"Uh..." he reached for the bouquet of roses laying on the blanket and handed them to me. "These are for you."

I smiled and thanked him. I took a seat with him and stared off at the sky.

What am I doing here?

"Myke... why did you ask me to come here?"

"I thought... that we could talk." He said while looking down.

"Well... talk." I said, coming off a little rude.

He took in a deep breath and began saying "I know that... you probably hate me for what I did, and you're in every position to do so, but... I..." he shook his head and let out a nervous laugh. "We never even talked about what happened." "You left me and that was it."

"What were we supposed to talk about?" I said as I furrowed my eyebrows. "We're we supposed to discuss how many times you slept with her behind my back, or something?"

"Gigi, I stopped seeing her."

"I didn't ask you too." I said. "You're free to do whatever you want. We broke up."

"So that's it?" He asked. "You're not willing to work, to fight for us?"

"Fight for us?" I said in disbelief. "What is there to fight for? You?" "You cheated! You went behind my back for months! Not just once." I said as tears began to form behind my eyes. "You made me feel insecure, and as if I'm not enough for you or something." "You made me feel the worst I've ever felt. I'm not able to be with you after that." "I'll never trust you, I'll never look at you the same way, no matter how much I love you, or how long we've been together. It will never be the same as it once was, so no. I don't want to fight for us."

"So you just don't care about me anymore?"

"I never said that!" I said. "I don't want to be with you. That's it. So don't text me anymore, and don't ever show up at my job again. Okay?"

He looked away and clenched his jaw.

"I have to go." I said as I began getting up.

"I'm not giving up on us." He said as he stared ahead.

I sighed and said "Myke, there is no us anymore. You really think i'm gonna stay with someone who had the nerve to go sleep with someone else behind my back? Who had me looking stupid for months?" "I didn't deserve what you did to me! I've always tried to be the best version of myself with you, I've always tried to give you nothing but love and support. And you just betray me like that?" My eyes were watering but i didn't care. I honestly did not care about crying in front of him, I can't stay u fazed, he hurt me.

"I know..." he whispered as he looked at me with guilt in his eyes. "You're right, you did not deserve that. I'm sorry, i regret it."

"Your apology doesn't change anything." I shook my head. "This sounds pathetic but... you honestly broke my heart Myke."

I wiped my eyes and said "I never thought you were someone able to do this... I- I plead you to leave me alone. Please."

"Gigi, I don't want to let you go."