Sweet but a Psycho (Showki Fanfiction)

Chapter 21

Hoseok POV

"Who was that?"

"It's my best friend Kihyun" I responded to her.

"Oh that adorable Kihyun you always talk about"

"Yeah he's adorable" I chuckled at her response about Kihyun.

"Do you like him Seokie?" She asked while giving me a gentle smile.

"What? No! grandma what are you saying?" I said. I think I'm blushing right now because I can feel my face is heating up. We currently are sitting on the living room couch with coffees on the coffee table after dinner. I visited my grandma's house after long time since I missed her and also took a day off tomorrow to stay with her. That's why I couldn't get dinner with Kihyun. I'm gonna go tomorrow night and take dinner with him.

"Aigoo Seokie I've been in that age too. I saw how your face lightened up when you looked at caller ID. I was like that too when I had someone I like. We didn't have phone like this that time but behaviors are same. I lived 78 years in this planet so I can see through people now. " She said that all while looking at me with a gentle expression. I was dumbfounded at her words. Everything was so true and I didn't have words to say for her to defend. I gave up with a heavy sigh.

"But he...he's a guy grandma" I said to her.

"I know. But I also know that the world change as time goes by so also people. I'm not going to say I approve same gender relationships but I can understand people hearts. So if you like him it's not a problem to me Seokie. You have freedom to love who you love and grandma will support that." She said that I can feel my eyes tearing up at her words. She really is the sweetest person I know. When I have a hard time she will always be a person that heals me.

"Oh don't cry kid. Its okay" She said with a concerned voice and hugged me why tapping on my back and I started to sob hard into her warmth until all my tears will go dry.

After like 10 minutes I stopped crying and sit a little proper before talking to her again.

"Grandma?" I called her with a small voice.

"Hmm?"

"But he has someone he like already"

"Is that the reason you cried dear?" She asked while rubbing my hair slightly. I slowly nodded still staring at my lap.

"Oh Seokie, It must have been hard for you my dear. Does the person Kihyun likes also like him. Is it a girl or a boy?"

"He also likes a guy and no. Still he don't like him back but Kihyun looks like he like him a lot. I'm afraid if I'm gonna confess to him I'll lose this friendship with him. That he's gonna end this friendship if I told him the truth." My grandmother is the only person that I can tell my worries without thinking much. She always listen to me carefully no matter what topic I'm talking about and understand me well.

"Does he look like one that does to a person when they confess their true feelings?" She asked me with a little concerned voice.

"No not at all. I mean he's so sweet and kind person. I don't think he will but I'm sure things will get awkward between us after that. Right?" I slowly raised my head to look at her in the eyes.

"Even if you two get awkward for a while it's better than not telling your true feelings for him. Just tell him and who knows? Maybe things will turn out good." She said while caressing my back gently.

"I was going to confess to him like a week ago. But because we were so busy I couldn't. But now as time goes by I'm getting afraid of rejection of his." I said to her.

"You should try. But I'm not going to push you into my choice, it's your choice. I'm just saying what I think best for you." She said and I sighed again as I thought some of my worries loosened up because of her. After few minutes of thinking I respond to her finally.

"Ok grandma I'll try"

I was arrived at my place like 4pm. And I'm going to confess Kihyun after dinner today.

I booked a reservation under a famous restaurant and informed Kihyun I'll be there at 7pm. He said that he have some remaining work to do and will be like 5 minutes late. I arrived at the table while enjoying the night view outside large windows. Kihyun usually likes night views so I booked the table near the window with a beautiful view.

"Thank you for waiting hyung" He said and sat in front of me with a smile on his face. I can see he's tired through his smile. It must be a hard time today without me. That's why usually I don't take free days.

We had steak and wine while enjoying night view and talking few random things. After we finished our dinner I sit properly for to tell him. Of course I'm trying to ruin the mood. But I have no option.

"Kihyun-ah?"

"Hmm tell hyung"

"The thing is...that I wanted to tell you is..." I was trembling, I turned my both hands into a fists which is on my lap.

"That ho..how is me..no..I mean what am I to you?" I looked down on my lap trying to avoid his gaze. His eyes widened a little when I said that.

"Huh?What do you mean hyung?" He asked with a soft voice.

"I mean what am I to you? Like a friend or something how do you think about me?" I said fixing my eyes on him again. The fear of rejection is real. I didn't think it will be this worst for me. Why am I being so weak over nothing happened yet?

"Oh right I get it now. Okay now first you are my best friend no scratch that you are my older brother. Even though you are not I want to think like that" That hurts more Kihyun-ah. I let out a little chuckle for him.

"...also you are a person that I need to be with me in happy times and hard times of my life. Hyung is so caring and gentle. So I'm lucky to have hyung by my side always. But what's the matter why so suddenly a question likes that? "

"No it's nothing I was just curious." So I was just a person like that in his life nothing more right?

"So hyung what do you wanted to tell me?" He asked me. I released a sigh before telling the things I need to tell him.

"Yesterday evening I went to my grandmother's house. That's why I couldn't have dinner with you" He made an 'aah' expression with his face after I said that.

"And I talked with my grandmother so long about a problem that keep bothering me for a while. However at the end I found a solution but I don't think it's a good solution but in another way I have nothing to do about it except that." He is carefully listening what I'm saying to him while leaning forward on the table.

"So Kihyun-ah I...I---"

"You like me. Don't you?"

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Hey guys! I'm back with triple update for a week!!! This chapter was dedicated to Hoseok side. Hope you liked it even though it's not about showki. 

I apologize for making him cry TT

I hope you have/had a good day today too. And stay safe and healthy. I luv you all so much <333

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See you again in Chapter 21. ❤️ (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤