ok guys today is going to be depressing and i really don't want to talk about this but i know i have to. and so todays subject is.........
suicide..
and i will tell you right now i have been suicidal.
and it feels like your falling down a blackhole.
you can't get out.
being suicidal is diffrent for everyone, there are diffrent feelings and diffrent probelms and diffrent solutions.
i has voices and defore you say" well she is insane" i was alittle out of order but not really insane.
i had voices tell me to end it all the time . it gets really annoying and there was one day i just couldnt take it so i grab a knife and when to my kitchen. i was just sitting there..
but then the doorbell rang.
now something you must know is that when i just that age i can't let the door go unansered and to this day i dont know why. but at the door when my bestfriend. i will not say her name for acouple reasons.
and when i saw her my brain went "what would she do if i died?"
she told me she wanted to hang out and i thought "i almost did it didnt i. i almost died."
and it's a horrible feeling to think you almost died and form this day forward i have a big fear of knifes.
if you are thinkling about suicide. .
then i will tell you now don't do it. it gets better no matter what is happening to you. you can get through it.
i hope this helped you and i hope to god you don't have to go through what i did.
bye
