Mistakes..

part one-c.l

Hey guys, as you can probably see from my profile, this isnt my first fan fiction. I have a bad problem with keeping the fan fiction going. On my first ever Fan fiction, I wrote it about Niall Horan-it was called i promised didnt i? I got over 1K reads on it and that really motivated me too continue writting but then all the comments stopped and along with the voting, so it felt like i was writting for myself. So for me too continue writting i need to get a certain about of reads each week. Then  will gradually build up too voting. The comments dont really bother me, i just like to know peoples critism, as i feel like it can help me become a better writter and that wil let you enjoy my boom even more. So sorry for blabbing on, but i hope you enjoy this book and later on in the book i will be holding weekly comps for you guys too become characters in the fan fiction:)

enjoy.

Paragraph one

"i would like you all too bow your heads in honour too Mrs Jess Sims, for being the best women she could be, also for being the best mother in the whole wide world." My brother jake spoke out into the audiance. Tears slid down my face and  i gripped onto my little sisters hand. Memories where all the family were together came into my mind, times where we would all sit the living room watching movies together. My brother was the one too keep this family strong, he helped us through our rough stage in our lives. When my dad left us, he was the one too pick up all the broken pieces. My brother Auditioned too X-Factor, and it felt like years ago when we were all standing with dermot, but in reality it was only a few months ago. My brother hasnt been home alot due too the x factor tour, but now that he is here and with me and my sister. I just want it too be like old times, but it cannot be like old times without my mum here too make us all laugh when we are down, too be the best mum ever, and it will never be the same.

"hey girls" my brothers voice broke me from my emotional thoughts, i looked upto him, he was my role model. "hey jake" i smiled delicatley too him.

Jake held out his hands infront of me and Syd, i looked at his hand blankly for a minute, "c'mon, we gotta go" he spoke.

I looked at him with a puzzeled expression. Sydney got up and walked towards jake, i still sat there. "where to?" i finally spoke up. Jake never said anything he just stared blankly into space. I knew something wasnt right with him, he had this sour, disgusted emotion on his face. He shortly started again, "look cass, i know its been a long time and everything, but sometimes you gotta just let things go. We managed so long witho-" What was he saying? "where are you going with this?" i questioned abruptly. "were going to dads"

"what?! no. i am not" i said standing up holding my ground. "c'mon cass" he said too me walking towards me, but i took a step back. "you go ahead, go the man who left our mother. Go see him and let him treat you the way he treated mum. But i will not let myself walk back into that shithole we used too call home. No fucking way" i shouted which had gained alot of peoples attention who atteneded the service. "Cass, cut it out. We are going" he said too me softly. I looked at him, disgust written all over my face, and i saw in his eyes that the look i gave him hurt him. It hurt me seeing him hurting, but really, after everything that man we call 'dad' put us through? he wants to visit him. no.

I walked out of the reception and headed towards the funeral car, i got into the far side and plugged in my head phones. I scrolled through my play list until i landed on mums favourite song. hurt by christina Aguilera. I played the song, looking out the window admiring the roads we drove on. I knew that Jake never done this too hurt me or Syd, he was doing it for our benefit. The only thing that annoys me is the fact that he doesnt realise how much our mum would hate the fact of us going to the man who put us all through so much pain. Today, has been so eventful and i cannot imagine what life will be like without her here. I felt my eyes getting tired, they were dropping slowly and i wanted too have a few minutes too myself, just me and my thoughts. My eyes fully closed and i was enveloped into a precious sleep.

My eyes started too open, only too see the house. The house that brings back so many terrible memories, i turned too look at Jake and he just smiled. He didnt lose eye contact with me, all he done was lean forward and kiss my forehead. "i wont let him hurt us like before, i promise". I nodded in agreement and stepped out the car.

We headed towards the front door and jake brung his knuckles too the hard back wood and hit it a few times. We waited sereval minutes until the knob of the door slowly opened. My life kind of went in slow montion. This was it, this was the only time i was going to see my dad after what? 3 years. The door slowly opened only too reveal a young looking man, with no facial hair like my dad, he was young, and not very attractive. He had this shannagle tooth which made him look like the son of nanny mcphee. "can i help you?" this snobby man questioned us, "yes, where is my dad" jake said rudely. "your father? you mean my father, is out" the nanny mcphee look a like replied just as rudley. "my dad is not your dad my friend" i chipped in, "yes, yes he is. You see, when people leave, they find better people, my father met my mother back in the day and they had me, im guessing he had you bunch as well" he said with his nose in the air.

"look, your dad, my dad whatever the fuck he is, said he was going to be here. So let him know from his son and 2 daughters that he had his chance and he had blown it." jake said pointing in the young mans face. The young man looked distraught, "what about you mother?" the man questioned with a smug smile on his face. I looked at the ugly man standing before me and walked closer so he was backed up against the front door, "speak about my mother or my family again you will be chocking on your teeth. got it?" i said loudly. The man nodded quickly and i grabbed Sydneys hand and walked towards the car.

"dont let him bother you cass, we'll sort him out later. but in the meantime, you and syd can come stay with me" jake announced in the car. I smiled and leaned my head against jakes shoulder.