Beautiful Mistake [KNY x Reader]

6| { MISTAKE } |

Y/N was listening to a playlist on Spotify that she made, it contained songs that you could cry yourself to sleep, the little Hashira walked slowly not minding her surroundings, it was just her, herself, and her thoughts. Y/N was just drifting off into her own fantasy while heavy rain poured, the raindrops landed directly on her body making her soaking wet, the once warm breeze turned into a cold breeze, the grey clouds blocked the sun. Y/N loved the rain whether there was thunder or not, a child once asked her 

"Why do you like the rain when the sun is being blocked?" 

"It shows that nature needs to cry sometimes," 

Y/N was currently being trapped in her mind. That one word would always play like a song on replay, a song with one hurtful word, a song with a sad melody, a song where not many people understand, and that one word in that sad song was 'MISTAKE' no matter how many times she had tried to not think about it she couldn't. It's funny where the word mistake can be used in many unharmful sentences yet can be so harmful at the same time. Why can the word mistake be unharmful to others but it's the opposite with the Space Hashira? Well, others will see it as an act or a judgment that is misjudged or wrong while Y/N sees it as an insult where that can be a description for her, there's a simple reason why she thinks this it is because everyone she had ever met in the past would call her a mistake. Her father called her a mistake cause of her white hair tips, the villagers in her village called her a mistake cause her father framed her for her own mother's death, the young girls in her village called her a mistake cause of jealousy they get from her looks, the young boys called her a mistake cause she rejected their confessions refusing to be used as their satisfaction. 

Y/N was still walking as the heavy rain proceeded to pour on the senseless girl, she was so busy hearing her music that she didn't notice that someone was attempting to catch up with her, she finally realized that someone was next to her when she couldn't feel the raindrops on her head she looked up to see an umbrella raised above her, she looked to her side to see the one and only Rengoku Kyojuro, "Hello Y/N! Why are you walking through the rain without an umbrella?" he asked with a smile plastered on his face "I.... didn't prepared have one," the shorter girl replied looking away "Are you heading back to the Headquarters?" he asks once again the girl nodded "Me too!" he says as they started to walk. The walk was silent but not in an awkward type of silence, in fact, it was a comfortable type of silence, for some reason, Y/N enjoyed his company she usually would get annoyed if someone was walking with her on her walks but not this time. The silence broke when Rengoku started talking with the shorter pillar and to his surprise, she replied a little more than she usually would Rengoku felt happy that she was speaking a bit more than usual. Soon the rain had finally ended and they had reached the headquarters after they went in they bid their goodbyes to each other and went to their own estates. 

[ TIMESKIP TO NIGHT TIME ]

Y/N whose hair is now soaked was wearing an oversized shirt with black shorts. Y/N had a towel laying on her shoulders, she walked over to the outlets and plugged in a cable that allows her to use her hairdryer after she dried her hair she flopped on her bed and stared at the stars, once again it was just herself alone with her thoughts, it was a peaceful silence, the stars glowed in the night sky, the crescent moon was just staying still there surrounded by all of the stars, as soon she felt her eyes getting heavier as the seconds passes by and soon she fell asleep, hours passed by and the little Hashira was still asleep but she was tossing and turning, there was a facial expression that told discomfort, anger, sadness, and terror, why you may ask. It's because of her "dream" that is being played in her head. 

[ ~In Y/N's Dream~ ]

Y/N just stood there surrounded by darkness, she felt like she was in a box and there was that one word written all over the walls 'Mistake' she then saw her father, he quickly threw a kick to her stomach it somehow felt harder than how he'd usually do she fell to the ground clutching her stomach, blood flowed up her throat causing her to puke it out, her father holds a fistful of her hair lifting her up a bit then threw her to the wall on their right, Y/N tried to get up when she felt a foot stomped on her ribcage she expected to see her father but no, it wasn't, in fact, it was her mother, Y/n's mother's eyes once held kindness and comfort but now it held anger and hatred, 

"You know, I was beautiful before I got pregnant with you," her mother stated with a harsh voice, it was not the voice that Y/N missed "You better grow up to be something good to pay for all of the trouble you caused since birth, you mistake," she spat out Y/N's eyes widen she knew her mother would never call her a mistake, her mother knew how much it hurt her with that one word, soon both of her parents faded away. Y/N stood up wiping the remaining blood that was still dripping from her mouth, she soon saw the Hashira's but they all acted different they all started scolding Y/N, accused her of such things, and they all just insulted her

"You're just a MISTAKE who got lucky, how did a mistake like you get to become a Hashira?!" Sanemi spat out with venom in his voice

"You're such a monster! How dare you kill your own mother, you MISTAKE!"  Mitsuri yelled out 

Y/N just stood there shocked and ashamed, she looked down 

"You un-flamboyant mistake I feel so bad for the person you confess your love to," Uzui harshly told

"I'm surprised a weakling MISTAKE like you were able to become a demon slayer," Giyuu said looking away, soon everyone did then faded away 

Y/N woke up sweating bullets, she breathed trying to calm her down but it wouldn't work. Voices filled her head every single one is from different people from her village 

"The world would be so much better if you were DEAD," a male voice was heard

"Stop, go away!" Y/N softly shouted 

"You're such a slutty bitch!" a younger male shouted 

Y/N closed her ears hoping it'll stop the voices 

"HOW DARE YOU STOLE MY HUSBANDS STUFF YOU PATHETIC THIEF!!" a girl shouted 

"Go away!" Y/N shouted slightly louder 

Voices haunted Y/N till morning, Y/N wasn't able to sleep much there were some light eye bags under her eyes so she used her foundation to cover it up. It went on like this for night every night the same dream would play when she got barely any sleep and after that, the voices would haunt her until morning, the Hashira's noticed that Y/N has been getting a lot sleepier as she had never gotten any sleep at all, right now they're finding the Space Pillar since her crow told them she isn't at her estate they all looked around until they heard Sanemi shouts.

"Sanemi what happened?" Shinobu was the first to ask, she and the others couldn't see what he found cause he was blocking whatever he found until he stepped aside

"How the fuck is she sleeping like this?" Sanemi asks as he steps aside revealing the Space Pillar who is currently sleeping while standing, all of the other Pillars sweatdropped at the sight.

A/N: Hey my little Chockies thank you guys so much for 158 readers! Tbh I didn't think people would even read my story