Bts short series and oneshots

Loner (Kim Namjoon)

Looking up at the sky my eyes wandered off to my surroundings. "Am I loved?? Do I deserve to be loved?? Who would love a LONER like me?" A hand on my shoulder made me flinch as I turned around looking at him and his eyes showed love for me. The warmth radiating from his eyes.  "Lost again I see my love." A melancholic smile played on my lips passing him a short smile.

It's always been like this me wondering why a loner like me would want to be loved by anyone and him always standing by my side reassuring me, I ain't alone I have him by my side. "Why do you love me Joon?" My sweaty palms held his warm ones. He took in my fragile state seeing the way I silently broke down in front of him.

"Why am I so worthless Joonie? You'll find someone better than me someday won't you? I never had good friends in my school, neither did my sister pay attention to me. It was always me left alone to be with myself. Am I really that bad? That people hate me and distance themselves away from me?"

A loud shrill cry escaped my lips, clutching onto his trench coat shedding tears. Tears of pain, tears of self-hatred, tears of feeling as an outcast in this extremely perfect society as it claims itself to be. Pain and wrath of self hatred cascaded my vision.

Namjoon wrapped his arms around your figure resting your head on his chest letting you cry your heart out. "Cry out your heart my love, for you shall know that this pain is short lived. Those tears painting your ethereal face might be ugly to your existence but I know the worth they hold behind those teary moisture. For thou, your pain shall not always be yours. A lover's hand would forever be by his love's hand."

He rubbed your back, letting you yell on his chest and cry your pain out. "It's ok to not be ok but it's never ok to think you're worthless. Because you're much more worthier than what people disgrace you to be. Demons disguised as angels shallow their fire sprinkling it as holy water, but sin shall always remain sin. So is your worth, none can judge you or your worth for you shall forever be the one to judge it."

"But, always remember loving yourself a little less everyday would finitely result in you hating your existence bit by bit with every passing day. So stop running through this maze of pain. Hold my hand, let's nurture self love together on a journey filled with thorns. I'll be your petal. You'll be my flower as I continue always reminding you of your beauty and love, it doesn't matter if the society doesn't accept the real you but I surely do. So should you. Because you're the own dwelling of your own seedlings."

He ruffled your hair pulling you back slightly, lifting your chin up with his index finger. Wiping away your tears with his thumb kissing your cheeks. "Tears don't suit you until and unless it's our marriage day, or the day I propose to you. So make sure to save them for the best day." His lips brushed against your forehead giving you an instant sense of comfort. You laid your head back on his chest listening to his soothing heartbeat.

"Omg Joon even your heart speaks of self love and raps in Ddaeng beating at its own music." You laughed through your teary orbs. Namjoon chuckled at your irrelevant theory nodding his head. "It surely does definitely for my love." He proudly stated leaving you a blushing mess.

"So should we start our journey to find yourself before being each other's everything?" Namjoon extended his left hand out. You happily accepted it, intertwining it with his. "Look at the sunset, " Namjoon pointed at the sun setting in the west. "Sun can't be seen directly without UV protection ray glasses. But it's of course the main reason why we all stay alive today breathing. The reflection of the sun might be dangerous to all the people out there. But to me it's not, without the sun there would be nothing we could cherish."

"You're like those scattering rays of sun which need the right path to find yourself out and shine at your level best. After every dark, feared night there is always a bright morning. The moon might be pleasant to our sight but it brings along fear and darkness with it. The sun might scare and harm your eyesight but it's the ultimate solace that we preach for at our hard times. So let's hold on for a second to remind ourselves that there's nothing wrong with being the real me. For this is my life and my true self. So live my love. Live for yourself."

His each and every word touched your heart. "Y/N will you let me be your sun?" He showed his bear smile making you nod your head. Namjoon came closer to you, capturing your lips in his you wrapped your arms around his neck standing on your tippy toes deepening the kiss.

The sun smiled witnessing the two lovers embrace each other's worth nurturing their pain into love, under its warmth standing by a river.

"To find your worth one needs to heal from their pain. It might take time but the end would be really beautiful.
Welcoming a new bright morning of a real you, the one who would accept all your flaws as who you are. You'll love yourself a little more and hate yourself a little less, cause you know it's the real you. The one who'll be strong because you know days are gonna be hard again nevertheless you won't be hard on yourself ever again. Love Yourself Love Myself."