LIFE

01

Day 01,

Remedy Soul..

Have you ever thought about life? 

Have you ever question what life is living for?

Why are we even living?

Are we really living..

Or just existing and surviving?

The life we wanted to have so much is the very opposite of life we are living. We all just wanted to be genuinely happy, why can't we? When was the last time i was happy? When was the last time i was living? Because.. all i know is that I am just existing and surviving everyday.

I always have a hard time getting out of bed, thinkin of life.

Why Am I even doing in this world? Why can't i just die? Why? 

I keep asking it myself. Why did i ever do to exeperience this hard and tough life, Am I a bad person? Did i do something bad? Bakit kailangang mawala lahat ng mahal ko sa buhay? Why did i do to exeperience and deserve this kind of life? hahaha i don't even know.

People just keep on hurting me and giving me reasons why should i build my walls higher and thicker.

Am I a bad person? Am I a bad friend? Daughter? Sister? Cousin? Why do they always break me?my trust?

Am I not worthy to be love? to trust? to be trusted? Why do they always hurt me.. I wonder why.

And I Am still finding the answers for those questions... 

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_chamitasam