LIFE

03

Day 03.. And i feel the same way. Tired.

Remedy Soul..

Gusto ko nalang maglaho bigla at bumalik kapag ayos na ako. Pero ayoko naman silang iwan kasi what if they need me and I'm not there? Whose gonna be with them? Whose gonna help them to get up?

But i also wonder if they think the same way. But they don't, they just leave and comeback when its convinient for them. They're not even thinking of what I could feel or felt when they left me all alone, hanging around.. alone.

I can't even explain what shit I Am feeling right now.. I don't even understand myself anymore, i can't recognize the emotions I Am feeling.

Am I happy?

Am I sad?

Am I feeling complete?

Am I feeling peace?

Am I hurt?

I don't know what emotion I Am feeling right now. I don't even remember the last time i felt something..

Maybe it started when my mom died and my family fucked up..

I don't know..

Wala akong maramdaman at makita kundi dilim, nababalot ako ng kadiliman at hindi ko mahanap hanap ang liwanag. 

Blanko. Blanko ang aking nararamdaman at blanko din madalas ang aking isip. Sa sobrang dami kong nararamdaman at naiisip nagiging blanko nalang ito..

I miss me.

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_chamitasam