Lost & Found

Waiting

A/N
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KONGPOB POV

I didn't know that waiting was torturous. After the incident on the plane, I expected the brothers to punish me. For betraying their trust and them, what I didn't expect was them to back away from. Although I am still caged in this golden mansion of theirs, they are no where near me. I am not near them. They don't keep me in our room rather I am given a seperate one. The idea would have been preposterous had it been before all this happened. But no. I am waiting for my punishment. I want them to punish me but not like this. I can't take their silence. I want them to say something, shout at me, may be even hurt me physically cause emotionally I am at my threshold.

I knew I craved their attention in those three weeks when I ran away. But this I can't accept. They haven't talked to me since the day they got me here. It's been a week. Did I completely loose them? All I see now are guards. They don't mind my existence as well. Often, I see the brothers looking at me, eyes filled with hurt I caused them. 

It's my fault isn't it? I should've known that I can't leave. I can't find myself away from them. They are the masters of my soul. Devils to whom I sold my soul. Despite these they are the angels that I fell for. Sweet yet troublesome. My life. And now I need to gain them back.

For once I should be the one confronting them. Finding courage, I move out of the room. I search all possible places before I find them in their home office. Both sitting elegantly gracing the chairs, eyes concentrated on their laptops. Arthit had a small frown that usually took over him whenever he didn't like something. Kit however ordained a neutral expression. It was always hard to guess what mood he was in.

Sighing, I stepped inside pushing the door further to gain their attention. This is the first time ever that I have sought them out on my own after finding the truth.

"I need to talk." I was glad that I didn't stutter despite the storm inside me. I was shivering in their presence wanting to be in their arms. I didn't understand this game of hide and seek.

I could find surprise in their eyes. They didn't expect me to come to them I guess. They've been staring yet none of them spoke. I could've swore that they want to devour me right here when I found lust in their gaze. In my hurried stature, I forgot that I only wore a long white shirt probably one of their with black trim shorts exposing my thighs and shoulder. It was the only that kept me company while they left me.

"Aahhhhhhh....Kongpob leave." I heard Kit. I flinched at the harsh tone. But I was determined to see this through.

"No." One word and everything changed. In the next second I was pushed to the very door I entered from, with Arthit on me. His right hand choking me. His eyes boring into my soul. He smelled too good. Was I fucked up to get aroused by how he was chocking me yet his thumb caressed them? I might be cause in this second my breathing accelerated and my herat was probably running a marathon.

"I hate that word from your mouth." He said as his eyes moved to my lips. I was too focussed on him to even know what he was doing until he moved away. Giving me my space that I didn't want anymore.

"It's for your own good, leave this room now." Kit said while he stood near Arthit.

It hurt that they didn't call me 'baby' or 'sweetheart' anymore. It hurt so bad.

"Why are you keeping me here, if you do-nt want me?" Despite not wanting to break my voice cracked. J couldn't muster the thought of keeping away from them. How fast the night changes. Few weeks back it was me who ran away and now when they gave me space, I don't want it anymore.

"What do you want? Huh...? You want us to leave you completely? You don't want us near you? That's why you are here asking this? You can't handle us near you, is that it?" Arthit shouted as his cheeks got wet from the silent tears that left his eyes

Before I could even speak or do something, Kit spoke with tears in his eyes
"Are we so unbearable? You can't even bare to look at us? We can't have you, but can't you even let us look at you from afar. If you leave..leave we know you won't ever see us. We are selfish. Yes we are but we love you too much to let you go. We can't. We just can't. We are the way we are. We kill we laugh. We don't feel remorse but we can't help it. Only you can help us. Through out our lives of was only us, our parents were killed by some random people looking for money. We had us. We grew out to be cruel but we love. We love you. But you don't want that. You get disgusted with our presence. You don't belong to us but can't we keep you. Please...."

Never in my life I have cried this much, not after seeing these two people who stole every sense of logic from me. Throughout Kit's word Arthit held him, supporting him as their word broke me, broke us. They were hurting as much as I was. They wanted to be loved. They were killers but that didn't stop me from seeing how they loved. They loved with their life. Giving me all. They were on their knees, crying silently as they looked at me. I stumbled down not being able to keep up on my legs. I sobbed letting out all...

The room was full of our tears. Seeing them like this was beyond anything. They were my pullers of strength. My hold. But in this moment I understood that as was I for them. They functioned with me. We functioned together. In this small amout of time we became replaceable to each other. I couldn't see them weak like this. I promised then to myself this will be the last time that I will hurt them. They are mine just as I am theirs.

I got up and went to their side. Crouching down I took both of their hands in me and spoke

"I belong to you. Only to both of you."