•𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙂𝙤𝙡𝙙 𝙈𝙚𝙙𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩 •

𝐹 𝑖 𝑣 𝑒

- 𝐒𝐪𝐮𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐎𝐧𝐞 -

It's been a few days since I last seen Lance , let alone the gym . I was just caught up in so many feelings - I couldn't handle them all at once . All of my actions the other day were just made me feel like a villain .. and yet I can't even imagine how Lance feels . So , I decided to take 3 days off of training and spend time with my mom , and I did a little volunteering at the youth gymnastics center .

There , I met Nia . She's the sweetest little angel . IShe reminds me quit of when I was younger , But where not here for the wholesome moments .. where here to see the drama . I somehow thought it would take my mind off of everything .. but it didn't . It made me think about it more .

- 3:16 am -

I tossed and turned in my bed , trying my hardest to sleep . But I just couldn't stop thinking about Lance . I felt bad , being I slapped him .. but then again if he wasn't being such an ass - we wouldn't have never went there in the first place . But still , it wasn't my place to slap him . In order to solve a problem , you solve it correctly .

Sitting up , I realized .. I honestly owed him an apology , and I wouldn't be able to sleep if I don't give him one . I got out my bed quickly but quietly , trying my best not to awaken my mom . Grabbing my keys - i scurry out the door , Pj's only . Now , I didn't know what gave me this .. energy to go and apologize at 3 in the morning - but what I did know , was that I don't even know where he lives and if he was awake . I was kind of determined to go back into the house .

But on second thought , Coach might know . And I know your probably thinking "What ? Isn't your coach sleeping ??" She's on a vacation . I know she's probably up drinking or getting laid lmao . It really depends on where she went . But A small phone call wouldn't hurt .

*beep beep*

Coach Bea : Hello ?

You : Coach Bea ! Hello , how are you ?

Coach Bea : I'm doing great - aren't you supposed to be getting rest for Worlds ??

You : Yes .. yes I am , but me and Lance got into some uhh .. a small quarrel , and I couldn't sleep without apologizing . It was just eating me up inside .

Coach Bea : Uhm .. Okay ? About 2 hours ago , he told me he was at the gym doing bars , and getting his mind off of stuff .

You : Oh my god - thank you coach , your a life saver !

* beep *

To the Gym I go . Hopefully I'll catch him there . If not , then there will always be tomorrow .. which was not going to be kind to me without sleep . You know , somehow I feel like I'm in one of those movies where the guy lies or something and tries to get the girl back . You know ?? Nevermind .

- Dreams of the Gymnast Association -

Arriving , I noticed a nice black sports car . Lance didn't have a car .. but maybe someone brought him , if he was even here . But that made me be more cautious . Lord knows who was in the gym .

I walked into the darkness , searching for the switch . I flipped one , turning on one light enough to see where i was going . I then looked around to see if Lance was here , but it was just the empty room of equipment . Then I noticed that the bar was covered in a fresh coat of chalk , and his jacket was on the floor  - which meant he's still here , or he could've just recently left . I decided to check the office , then if he wasn't there , just go home .

I was honestly a little scared thought because there was still that random sports car issue . But I mean , if I die - imma die a bad bitch . You know what I'm saying ? Anywho - As I made my way up the stairs , I heard small noises . I couldn't make them out , till I got to the last step .

" ᴼʰ ᵐʸ ᵍᵒ— ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ˢᵗᵒᵖ .. ᵁⁿʰ .. "

Getting closer to the door , I started making out the "noises" . Someone was clearly doing someone .. 

You : Lance .. ?

I slowly opened the door , revealing a candle lit space , and two people in the shadows . I squinted hard  trying to make the dark figures .. which only resulted me in stunned .

" ᶠᵘᶜᵏ .. ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵍᵒⁿⁿᵃ ᵐᵃᵏᵉ ᵐᵉ ᶜᵘᵐ .. ᵐʰʰʰ ! "

As I stood there , Lance looked at me , while mouthing to .. her " Do it " . She then smiled and kissed him , as he still had his eyes on me . I couldn't believe my sight .. or my hearing . I covered my mouth , trying my hardest not to puke ..

I felt humiliated in so many ways .. and I wasn't even the one who got caught . I turned around and started running . My head was all over the place . I was embarrassed , angry , wanting to kill myself - and I was actually kind of hurt .

As I got into my car , I drove off . All I could think was how his asswhole ways started to fade back in . All the bullying , the flirting , the assaults - It was all coming back .

- 5: 56 am -

When I got home , I most definitely couldn't sleep . I felt stupid , and the embarrassment was still there . Far away from the scene .. and it still haunts me . What's even worse .. is he's still my coach .

While the night went on , the minutes I spent thinking about how I was going to face him , and how I was going to look at him as a coach .. those minutes turned into hours . My mind was just so bent on how I was supposed to avoid him .. everything was just getting to me so easily . I sighed , pushing a deep breathe . I was worrying for all the wrong things .. but I didn't know how to stop .

But what hurt me most was .. I went to apologize .. as a friend . No .. not even a friend . A person of interest . Not as a student , not as a competitor .. but as .. maybe a future girlfriend . But Man , am I idiot ..