Where is your heart tonight

Chapter Thirty Three

We were having our Knightly chat a week later after our break. Jordan was telling me about the surprise party his family had thrown for him on the day he travelled back. They wouldn't let him have a nap he complained. He described the cake he received. He loves his chocolate just as much as his coffee. It's good to hear his accent, love his voice. Miss him so much.

"Miss you".

" Miss you too".

"Still work in process of getting you here. I have sorted out transport carriers for your two animals".

" You have already".

"Yeah. I will pay it all".

" You don't need to do that. But thank you so much". He smiles back.

"Honestly you don't wanna know the price. My lawyer is still working through the different visas" he replies sadly "We haven't been a couple long enough to warrant a couple of visas. I can get you working for me as an assistant or at the restaurant".

" That would cause a conflict of interest. Me sleeping with the boss". He chuckles at my comment.

"Mmm, I like. But I wouldn't be if you work at the restaurant" he says "But it's still a work in process".

" How are you really? I miss you".

We are on a video call. It's eleven pm over here so it's six pm there and he's tucked up in bed.

"Fine," he says "Miss you too".

" Then why are you in bed".

"Bored. Lonely. Nah watching Netflix in bed". There was his signature smile. He moves in bed and I can see all the snacks he's hoarding in bed.

" You're not just wasting your time sitting in bed, are you?".

"Hell no," he quickly replied, "I do stuff".

" What about band stuff?" I asked, "Fenway in September".

" Not yet. Rehearsals start in July" he says "Donnie and Jon are busy with their shows".

" So you are having downtime then".

"Lazy time".

" Ah, there it is".

"Hey, I'm entitled to some time off".

" What wasting away in bed with snacks and Netflix?. There goes your healthy image. Toned body".

"Hey, that's mean".

" What is?".

"Calling me fat and lazy".

" Nope".

"Yeah right". His hand moves with a grin on his face but it goes into a bag of chips. " I can't believe you were thinking of dirty".

"What?".

" I see it in your face" as he fills his mouth with Cheetos. I can see cheese powder puff in the air covering his face and his white tee shirt. I shake my head at him but he can't say anything with a full mouth. He looks like a hamster.

"How old are you?" I ask.

He was still struggling to chew what was in his mouth. He lifts a hand as he is still chewing. Then he swallows.

"Hey!". He brings the bag up to his mouth and piles more chips into it. I love his goofy ways.

" I shall let you get back to your snacks and Netflix watching".

"No," he says with Cheetos crumbles flying out of his mouth. Cute. Not. This is what those nasty girls should see. Then they would have other ideas. This is the childlike goofy side of him. Not the sexy side they think he is. They don't see the real shy side of him either. They see what they want to see. And think he is rude when shy and quiet.

"It's that you are busy eating".

" I can talk". More fly out of his mouth.

"Jordan!!!".

" What?". More come out.

"That's disgusting".

" You love it". Then he swallows the rest and takes a sip of drink from a can.

"Not really" I reply. He gives me his sad puppy dog eyes. "Please don't do that".

" Do what?".

"Whatever you are doing now?".

" What eating?".

"No, looking at me with your puppy dog eyes".

" Is it working?" He smiles back as he leans back against his bed.

"Nope".

"You sure" he winks as he folds an arm behind his head. He leans up against his pillows looking very comfortable. I so wish I was there. I think he notices what I'm thinking cos there is a smirk on his face. "I know what you're thinking. I think it too".

" And what is that?" I say.

"You want to be here laying here". He moves the arm behind his head and pats the bed next to him. " Me too. I want you here".

"But I can't".

" Yet". He smiles. "Soon. I can't wait".

" Aww, you're so sweet".

"I'm charming".

Well, at least he has stopped with those puppy dog eyes.

" I'm going to let you get back to binge-watching and eating" I yawn.

"But I wanna talk".

" But it's getting late for me. It's nearly midnight". I yawn again.

"OK" he sounds defeated "I miss you".

" Miss you too".

"Love you".

" Love you too".

"Bye".

" Bye".

Then he is gone. I sigh as I put my phone away. I then snuggle up into bed and close my eyes.

Jordan POV.

"I'm going to let you get back to binge-watching and eating" I see her yawn.

"But I wanna talk".

" But it's getting late for me. It's nearly midnight". I know it's late for her as I see her yawn again. Am I being selfish wanting to still talk to her?

"OK" I give up "I miss you".

" Miss you too".

"Love you".

" Love you too".

"Bye".

" Bye".

I put my phone down next to my can of La Croix on my bedside table. And snuggle further into my bed pulling the covers over me. My horde of snacks gets pulled up too towards me. I pick up a packet of peanut m&ms. I stare at them for a while, put them down again only to pick them up once again. I hear her words again.

" What wasting away in bed with snacks and Netflix?. There goes your healthy image. Toned body".

I pick up the remote and carry on binge-watching Netflix while munching on m&ms and Milano cookies. I blame Donnie for recommending me, Tiger King on Netflix. That was until I fell asleep surrounded by empty packets.

I awoke to...

"Dad"... " Dad can you drive me to school I missed the bus"...