Where is your heart tonight
He is a member of a boyband. He has been divorced for a year which he kept quiet the whole tour last year. Now its cruise time and a shy quiet girl catches his eye. Now is it for all the right reasons or is it just a phas...
"It will be fine". " Will it..." I don't remember what happened but everything went black as I fainted...
"Jordan".
"Jordan".
I feel someone gently shake me as I slowly open my eyes.
" Get off".
"Jordan".
" What?".
"You fainted" someone laughed.
"Huh".
" Wake up and let's get you off the floor," the gentler voice said again.
I fully open my eyes and yes I am sprawled over the floor. I see Jon in my sight.
"What happened?".
" You fainted" someone laughed.
"Don't listen to Donnie?" said Jon "You were talking to me about the news you received from your girl".
" I did".
"Did you hit your head?".
" No... I don't think".
I am now sitting up. I am confused as to why I fainted. I have never done that before.
"If it's not because you were told about being a father again".
" What's this about being a father again?".
"Knew it. You had one of those weekends".
Even though I'm sitting on the floor, my face has turned bright red. I could feel my cheeks burning.
" Joe, can you go and get something sugary". Thanks, Jon.
"Coffee," I asked.
"With sugar".
" OK and chocolate" I reply.
"Whatever you can get Joe". Joe nods and off he goes. " Jordan, when did you last eat?".
"Breakfast".
" J, it's three in the afternoon".
"Oh ok".
" I think you have low blood sugar".
"I was too busy to eat".
" Jordan".
"What? I was".
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I spent most of the morning in the booth trying to perfect my vocals. Then the rest of the time helping with the producing and editing side. I lost track of time. I am still sitting on the floor. And it's getting uncomfortable sitting there. I do feel a little lightheaded, not cos I fainted but I am now feeling hungry. Joe comes back with a coffee cup in one hand and not sure what was in the other.
"Here J" he gives me the coffee cup.
"Thanks" I take a sip. It's too sugary even for my liking.
"And here". He gives me a packet of peanut M&Ms and a cupcake. "Jon said something sugary. But there is more food over there if you're that hungry". As he watches me shove half the cupcake in my mouth.
" What?". As crumbs fly out of my mouth.
"Really, J," says Joe "I know you like your food and that you're hungry".
I'm sitting there with chocolate frosting on my nose.
" You're lucky the fans don't see you like that".
"One has," I say with a grin as I remember.
My hand moves with a grin on my face but it goes into a bag of chips. " I can't believe you were thinking of dirty". "What?". " I see it in your face" as I fill my mouth with Cheetos. Cheese powder puffs in the air covering me and my white tee shirt. I can't say anything with a full mouth. "How old are you?". I was still struggling to chew what was in my mouth. I lift a hand as I was still chewing. Then I swallow. "Hey!". I bring the bag up to my mouth and pile more chips in. " I shall let you get back to your snacks and Netflix watching". "No," I say with Cheetos crumbles flying out of my mouth.
" That one doesn't count anymore," he says "Don't think anyone wants to see you looking like a hamster".
Now I need to act my age and stop an urge to stick my tongue out at him and then tackle him to the ground. I would have done that thirty years ago not now. Instead, I eat the other half as it goes into my mouth. I rub the frosting off my nose. The sugar was making me feel a little better but I'm still hungry. I want more. So I wash it down with the rest of the coffee and go looking for some more. Jon follows me. Sometimes I wish big brother can stop being a big brother.
" What?" I say as I notice him coming.
"I would like some food too. It's not all about you".
I don't say anything just walk towards the table full of food. It's nothing like what we can get during our tours but there's a lot of people to feed then. We are going to be here for a while. It's been seven years since we have done an LP. Thankful and Thankful unwrapped were EPs. We got to make this good. So we need to work hard to make it better than the last one. I got up to the table, there were sandwiches, burgers, fries, pizza, sodas, coffee pot, sweet Danishes, cupcakes and chocolate. I'm in heaven here. My stomach is now getting angry as it rumbles again.
" Maybe your new assistant can make you eat".
I ignore him and concentrate on what I'm gonna eat. I pick up a slice of pizza. I nibble on the pizza. Boy, did I need to eat? I always miss meals when busy with work and music. I get given a paper plate which I pile some more pizza, some fries and another two cupcakes. I poured myself another cup of coffee. Then go and find somewhere to sit. I slide into a leather couch. I check my phone while tucking into my very late lunch. Nothing more from Felicity so I guess we aren't then. Or there would be photos sent. I even checked my emails. But then that might not be the news. I feel my heart sink a little bit. I know I said a while back I didn't want any more. I really do now, I want a little girl. I would like to have the chance of being a protective dad when she brings her first boyfriend home. I guess I won't find out until two weeks when we are finally together again. It's gonna be a long two weeks. At least I got our new album to get us through it. I finish my snacks and put my phone away then I'm off to help sort out our music. That's what the next two weeks were like.
