Bella Swan Brother

{Chapter 11}

Beckham POV:

Waking up the next morning, with the best night of sleep I've ever had, was a great feeling, but waking up with Alec and Jane still huddled into my sides sound asleep holding on to me like a life line was the best feeling in the world. So great that I just had to pull them into my sides and smile contently with my eyes closed. I just lay there thinking about everything for the next few minutes.

One way my heart feels like it can't even bear the thought of being away from the two-people laying in the bed with me. I realized that I have never in my life been so at peace. My life has always been surrounded my bitchy mothers, self-centered sisters, packed arenas, camera's flashing, and traveling so much with no sleep that I don't know where I am. O the other hand though I have my brain telling me that things are going too fast. Also, being in a relationship with two other people and one of them being a guy would certainly be looked down on by management and promoters. I could lose opportunities and fans too. My brain is telling me to go back to Vegas, train, and just live the life I have made for myself. I can't let anyone or anything to take everything I have ever worked for away.

I think I need to talk to Marcus. Maybe he can help me make sense of everything. I don't want to leave the twins, but I don't think I can stay here. there must be away. With those thoughts going through my head I stay trying to get out of bed without waking anyone up but of course since I have two vampire koalas hugging me like I'm a tree it doesn't work. "Where are you going?" both Alec and Jane ask me slurring their word and voices heavy with sleep. "I just need to go to the bathroom and then I was going to go talk with Marcus about something" I tell them while carting my fingers through their hair. "Are you okay? Did something happen? Did we do something wrong? Are you going to leave us?" Jane ask suddenly wide awake. Next thing I know I have two very upset mates sitting in front of me with unshed tears in their eyes. I rush to pull them back to me which end up with each of them straddling one of my legs and hurry to explain myself "No! No! I am not leaving you. I am okay. Nothing happened and you did nothing wrong. I am just still confused about some things and I feel the most comfortable talking with Marcus instead of the other kings and I feel like he will know the most about everything that I am having trouble processing" I tell them while rubbing soothing circle on their backs and holding them as close as I can. Me talking seemed to help with calming them down almost all the way. "We're sorry. You just really scared us. I guess what Marcus said was true about new bonds being fragile" Alec said after they both sat up strait while keeping their eyes down and playing with their hands.

After all of us took showers separately and got dressed the twins took me to Marcus' office. They both gave me hugs and I gave them each a kiss on the head before they left to feed like we discussed on the walk here. they turned the corner and I knocked on the door waiting until I hear Marcus tell me to enter.

"Hello Beckham. Is everything okay, you look a little out of sorts?" Marcus says once he looks up from some papers to see my face. "Yes, everything is alright I just wanted to see if I could talk to you about the mate stuff" I say not really knowing how to talk about it. "Of course, I expected you soon enough. Happy you wanted to talk about it things early on" he said motioning to the sofa as he got up from his desk to take a seat on the other end of the same couch. "Now, ask away" he tells me. "Well, I don't know how to deal with this. I feel like I never want them to leave my side and be by my side forever, but I also think that everything is going too fast and that I am falling even faster. I was considering leaving and going back to Vegas, but then I told them that I needed to talk to you and I saw the tears in their eyes at them thinking I'm going to leave them. Just the thought of how they would be after I left made my chest hurt and made tears start to gather in my eyes, on the edge chocking up. Am I going crazy Marcus?" I ask him after explaining my issues. "There is nothing wrong with you Beckham. It is just the mate bond working its way out. The only reason you are having doubts is because your brain and heart are battling against each other. Your brain is doubting that this is not real while your heart is begging you to never go. It will get better within the next few days and will completely go away within the next week or two. It is natural is relationships with vampires and humans for this to happen to the human if they are the dominate in the relationship" Marcus told me explaining why I am having the whirlwind of emotions I am having. "Is it normal for the human in the relationship to be the dominate? How does that effect our relationship dynamic? Does the dominate in the relationship do anything special?" I ask him firing off more questions. "It is not often that the human is the dominate. It's not all that common for humans and vampires to have relationships, the human usually ends up being changed into a vampire quickly. Being the dominate means just being the leader and decision maker. It also means the submissive or in your case submissives seek comfort and love from you the most and look to you to protect them, but they will also protect you in the face of extreme danger to save you. Submissives usually engage in stress relieve actions to feel better so if I was you I would talk to Alec and Jane about how they combat stress so you can help them if something happens" Marcus tells me some more facts about relationships. "Thank you, Marcus. You have been extremely helpful with everything. I think I am going to go find Alec and Jane so we can go back to our room to have that talk" I say as I stand and reach my hand out to shake Marcus' hand. "Anytime. I am happy to help Beckham" Marcus says leading me to the door as I set out to find my mates in this huge castle.