All of my mistakes were being conceived when I was a freshman, only a few months before becoming a sophomore. I was super stoked. I haven't been performing my best the whollllllleee year. My GPA was at least a 1.5. Horrible right? I know. I just didn't care, and of course, a boy shouldn't be added in the situation. However, I was young....desperate. All of my friends had boyfriends, why couldn't I have one too? I have never been in a serious relationship. All of my relationships been in early middle school and elementary, they don't even count. I shouldn't even call them relationships....lets just say, these were the boys I shared my colored pencils and crayons with. I shared them with no one else. As my first year of high school was leaving, I finally started to take school seriously. My GPA was really embarrassing to discuss, I knew it was time to buckle down. And then a boy came my way. His name.....Hakeem. In my eyes, Hakeem was not my type. Sweet, funny, and caring he was.....but we never clicked.. Even though I was desperate for a boyfriend, I would never picture myself with Hakeem. The only reason I even dated him was because I pictured us going out for pizza, having a good time at the arcade..I pictured just being able to say I have a boyfriend. And that was the only reason I said yes. With both of us being 13 and 14, we didn't know what the hell we were doing. 3 days after I said yes, he asked me if it was too early to say I love you. Ummmm... YES! I may be young but I'm not entirely stupid. Loving Hakeem? Hell no. Hellllllll NO! I bet he didn't even know what love was. Matter of fact, I KNOW he didn't. Months and months went by. We've been together for 3 months. Those three months were horrible, but I never told him that. I'm awesome at lying. We barely ever talked on the phone...just text. And because I barely had friends, I had no choice but to text him back. He disgusted me in a way I can't explain. I guess I was just bored. That was mistake number one. In those three months, of course he'd walk me to class every day, hold my hand, hell we even skipped class a few times just to be together. But you know one thing we never did....hung out outside of school. NEVER! Not even to see a simple movie. He never asked me to go anywhere, never made plans. I knew he wasn't cheating on me because no other girl would give him the time of day. I knew that for a fact, besides I was the best girl he ever had. Not to be cocky and prideful, but...he appreciated the hell out of me because I'm the prettiest girl that ever agreed to dating him. When I say dude was cooked.....Dude was cooked. People would laugh in the hallways when we walked together and ask me why I'm with him in front of his face. I'd hear them say, the most cooked niggas always gets the pretty girls. You know what also sucked? The fact I had to make him call me. For a person who wasn't even into her dude, I definitely showed more compassion than him. He always had some excuse. But he always text me day and night.....
But there is always a time when a girl has had enough. I realized I was fed up when we hit 9 months. And STILL never had a date. I am the definition of a loyal girl that would hold you down. Well.....at least I was. He thought I was the most perfect thing....That all changed when my best friend Cameron told one of his friends to text me for advice.
It was summer break, and I was watching 106&Park waiting for Robyn Thicke to perform. I've been waiting on this for days, and nobody was gonna have my attention when he's on. I was laying on my bed when I felt my phone vibrate.
Cameron 💙💘: Hey Bahj😋
"Hey wassup Cam." I texted back.
Cameron 💙💘: Umm can you do me a favor?
"Depends....what is it?"
Cameron 💙💘: I have a friend. His name is Shamoyy and he needs someone to talk to. He's been down for a good minute and he needs a girl to boost his self esteem back up.
