why cant I ( one week jornal of a mental asylum prisoner)

Day 1

I find that I cant see the real world anymore. Or anything else except and flash or a face or a voice. You are probably thinking that you cant see voices but sometime I feel as though I can. It's like you haer the voice and then you see the person using it. Therefor you r seeing the voice. Sometimes I see a beautiful tune or a creepy sound or sometime a see a. voice saying a date. the date is always the same " March 7th , 2004". I dont know why they show me this date but I know this date will be on day 7. I guess I will find out what it means then. On a different note I fear that the pirson guards and the head master are planing my execution. But it is time for lights out so that will be enough writeing fir tonight. Goodbye.

Day 2

during feeding time I wasnt hungry. Something in my mind is telling there is no reason or perpose to eat because it is too late . I dont know why or how it is too late but I just know it is. there is officially no porpose for me anymore but im going to leave things the way they are for I can feel that there will be a big chang very soon. I have no more to say for a day of no meaning.

Day 3

I meet a girl named Lucy today. She is really nice and kind. She can think of things I never thought to think of. She told me stories that I would have never thought to tell. her smile is also nice and bright. I spend the whole day in her cell talking for today was visiting day. Even though it is called visiting day we still do not get to see family. Maybe we just dont have family. None of us. That could be why we are here. They never told us why we are here. They only tell us that we need help and to get it we have to obey. So we do. Well most of us. Like me and lucy. But I must go. Goodnight and goodbye.

Day 4

It is getting even closer to day 7 and it is scaring me. I have worried of this day for years and now it is only 3 days away. I saw Lucy again today and she smiled at me with that big beautiful smile. That smile keep me up last tight for a long time. when I finally fell asleep I had a dream of her too. I cant stop thinking of her. when I sat in my cell today I thought of the smile she gave and I will from now on hold it lose to my heart. I this what others call love? I guess I will find out.

Day 6

I forgot to write yesterday for the head master gave me a new cell next to lucy. I think she know I fancy her. She and the guards have been gaving me speical treatment lately. This worries me alot for I had that feeling of them thinking of my execution. Thought luck might be one my side because lucy asked to go out with me today. Im very excited to see what will become of us. But I still dont know if it is love or not. I might be wrong on what love is. But I shouldn't second guess myself. Its not healthy.

Day 7

I have now unfortunately found out what the date means. It is the day if my death. I will be executed today at 2 in the afternoon. Hereare guards all around me and no way of escape so I shouldnt even try. Lucy was sad of this and cryed all day so fa and still is now. The headmaster gave me a goodbye release witch is wear we are release to the courtyard and I am able to say goodbye to everyone. Especially lucy. She kissed me dureing the release. Now I can at lest die knowing if it was love or not. It was. Im going to slide this jornal under her door her door now and here is a letter just for her.

Dear Lucy,

I know this is hard for you and it is the same for me. I am glad for the days we spent toghter and the time we had. I want you to know the day I died was the best day of my life for that day you kissed me for the first time. I just want you to know that I will always be with you no matter what. I also want you to know that I love you more than anything and I always will whether I'm in heaven or on earth

With all my love,

John

prisoner# 3-7-04