Are you ever super sad and you just want to cry but you can't? And then you stare blankly into a wall for what feels like either forever or 2 seconds. But it's so frustrating and you just feel numb inside so you try to cry or feel sad because that's the only emotion you seem to have because trying to be happy is just fake. Thats how I . THE. TIME! And in school, you're trying to hold in your emotions and find people making you happy and you realize your smiling and stop, you think about sad things for no reason and then the class is over and you haven't learned anything, people are talking but you exclude yourself from much conversation and then boom! somebody asks if you are ok and you just snap, and now all you can think about is how stupid you must have looked and by the end of the day you are just at home lying in bed not able to cry and not doing anything, then bad things start happening every day and this just repeats in its own unique way every single day, well in this story I will just be venting about my days bit first I will give some backstory, feel free to vent in the comments to!