the art of different perceptions.

all for him...

                                                                                (part two)

was i not good enough for him?

i mean it seems so. as i turned around i saw this girl walk in behind me. she had the most beautiful eyes. the MOST flawless makeup and the prettiest tight outfit id ever seen. it was a beautiful dress. maybe i shouldve worn something like that. but as im looking at her, she smiles at me. she looks beautiful. she looks kind. i wonder if she gives him butterflies...

maybe if i didnt listen to my brother i wouldve gotten the same reaction. maybe then hed fall in love with me like he has with her. 

i take my seat and i start looking around the room out of curiosity. my eyes wonder over to where hes sitting. did i just catch him staring at me? surely not, i mean he was just staring at her only seconds ago. i looked over at her and she was looking at me too.

"oh no" i think to myself. have i done something wrong? is there something wrong with my outfit or face? 

i mean i just find it odd that they were both staring at me at the same time. has something been said about me? is there something wrong with me? a million questions go through my head.

i mean if he thinks im ugly then i must be....right?