Diary of A Women Who Loved Her Man Too Much

Diary of A Crazed Lover

August 5, 2005

Dear diary, this year will be another shit ride. At least im almost done with highschool, one more year and my job as a fashion designer begins. Im sure i can handle a year of despair again. Lets hope my new classes are at least enjoyable. That would ease the pain for awhile i guess. Still hate that my parents had to move to this town. Its alright but why move when you made so much memories in your old home. They didn't even said it was anything important, they just said its because they want to move to a new town and see new stuff. They could have just used google maps but i guess this is fine, its not even a bad town, I heard good things about this place.

August 15, 2005
Dear Diary, So far so good, teachers been really nice and we have like no homework for the next 2 weeks! Man, forget what i said, i have a feeling this month at least will be fun.

August 30, 2005
Dear Diary, Today I  just met some new people and they seemed pretty chill. We started off great and now im sure they are my future friends. Their names i think are Mike, Giovani, Julio and Maranda. They all have the same classes with me so this just keeps getting better and better.

September 21, 2005
Dear Diary, My friends and I went to this birthday party for their other friend, i think Damian or Damarius idk something with D or something. It was actually fun, we went to this trampoline place called SkyPalace and went to this plaza to do some stuff. And this guy seemed very nice, he took us out to eat without us paying, bought us stuff and watched a movie together. Although money can't buy friendship, he still seemed cool and very kind and im pretty sure this guy is either rich or stole his parents money.

September 30, 2005
Dear Diary, I can't believe im saying this but i think im in love. As crazy as that sounds cause i just met this guy but he just looks so god dam charming. I know my parents and friends say never to fall in love with someone just by their looks, so that's why im gonna befriend him and see if he's just the right person for me. Wish me luck God.

October 1, 2005
Dear Diary, Yes! First plan is complete, I started to talk and hangout with him and he seems ok so far. Just a little longer so i can be sure if he is a perfect match for me.

October 10, 2005
Dear Diary, I just know he is the right person for me! I forgot to mention that his name is Samual and He is just like that damian dude but 2 times better. He is like an angel sent by god. That's exactly why i know he is just for me. But I got to control myself, we just met so i can't just confess to him out of the blue.

October 27, 2005
Dear Diary, Halloween is nearing and i can't wait to show off my homemade Lilith costume from Borderlands 1 2 and 3. She is an amazing character which is why my costume has to look like her perfectly. Right now it looks great, i just need to do the phoenix
wings and im good.

October 31,2005
Dear Diary, after trick or treating with my friends and went to this party for juniors and seniors only, we all just hanged put at the park and chilled. Sadly some of us didn't last long and they start to leave but at least it left with me and samual. It was freezing cold and he gave me his coat from his jason Voorhees costume and i kid you not it smelled just like him and i was so happy cause i think he is starting to like me.

November 20, 2005
Dear Diary, My family is having thanksgiving at their house and this is the perfect chance to introduce them to the man of my dreams. Hopefully they'll accept him or if not ill make sure to change their mind.

November 25, 2005
Dear Diary, The feast was amazing and im pretty sure they like him. Of course they would, why wouldn't they? Like i said he is just perfect for me. I told them about my situation and they said to give it time. I know but i just can't wait. Then my brother gave me this great idea, he said i should confess too him on valentine's day! That may be a long time but it's the perfect time to do it. Thank you big bro!

December 5, 2005
Dear Diary, My favorite holiday is nearing and im excited and its gonna be fun and all my friends will be there vibing and doing all kinds of crazy this year.

December 15, 2005
Dear Diary, Me and my friends went to this light show at a chocolate factory and it was so pretty but the best part was i bumped into samual and we hanged out and we literally went on a date. I was so close to just kissing him right then and there but i had to hold back cause im not sure if hw likes me as well. I have to wait a little bit longer.

December 31, 2005
Dear Diary, Today was Christmas but nobody came. Im told they went to a different state for the holidays but i planned this all through the break.

But at least samual came. Hes the only one who stayed and went to my party. I was happy, more happy then i could calibrate. He really is the one for me.

January 14, 2005
Dear Diary, my friends were at this party and we just played a few childish games but          

My friend had to
dare me to confess

I loved Gionvani but why did he had to do this to me. I didn't know what to do so i just said skip me cause my parents wanted me to go back home. I wanted to but i gave an oath to me that i must wait until February.

January 29, 2005
Dear Diary, its coming and im not sure if im ready but i have to. Ive planned a location and time. I even made the love letter, idk why i went for the classic "anime confession" like im some anime school girl but screw it.

February  13, 2005
Dear Diary, this is it this is my moment. Please lord give me the courage to do it and please

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February 14, 2005
Dear Diary, YES! he said yes, omg i can't believe it he love me too. Oh thank you god, I finally have the love of my life with me. Screw this diary shit! This will now be a collection of all the things we will do together!

Dear Diary

Today was amazing, after 2 years of dating we decided to make promises to love each other to the end! Oh i just love him so much

               I want him to have my soul

I want him to have my children

                I want him to stay with me forever

Dear Dairy, im very disappointed in him, after we went on our 10th date i noticed he was eyeing some waiter while we were dining. He said it was cause he thought it was an old friend but i don't get it. I gave away my friends for him only but why would he still talk to them.
I thought he did the same

November 21, 2007
Dear Diary, We had an argument about a recent passing of a friend and i don't get why he is mad at me. I may have hated his friends for trying to hang with him more than me but why would he just go off on me like that.

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He said he was tired of it all and he wanted some space

                  I told him i was sorry but he just kept saying please just leave me alone

                                   I couldn't believe what was happening, i thought we were supposed to love each other till the end. I wanted to propose to him today why? WHY? W H Y?!

dear diary, IM happy now. he said he was SORRY and i forgive him cause i was so close to losing my BABY. I  love him so much i DIDN'T want him to leave me after we've been through. they all MEAN so much to me and so does he. TOday im gonna change and make every moment of our lives worth IT. almost losing what WAS a perfect relationship Almost made me the most saddest women on earth. i will never make a mistake ever, even if he is gone or it was a ACCIDENT. i must suffer the punishment that is held for me.