Before You Say Goodbye (Ariana x Y/N)

(7) That's the tree for life

~POV Ariana~

y/n already said that there is paparazzi so I was preparing myself mentally when I realised that y/n never had an interaction with the pap so I needed to help her. i take her hand and we walked outside. the pap was screaming something and light were flashing. i looked at y/n and she was calmer than I thought she would be. then my overthinking started what if it was all an act and y/n really did it for the fame. in the car y/n snapped me out of my thoughts. hey are you alright Ari do I need to drive us home? no I am alright it was just a little overwhelmed all the pap. yeah it was really heavy how do you deal with this? 

is she fucking with me, she was freaking calm why is she acting. wtf are you saying you where so calm like you were waiting for a moment of fame. are you happy now y/n... before i could finish my sentences she take my hand and put it by her heart. it was beating like it would explode. do you feel that ari, y/n says a little bit irritated. i nod. this is how i felt it was scary but maybe from the outside i looked calm because i learned to look calm when I am nervous or scared. so before you think i use you for fame. i don't wanna feel so shocked like i was a few minutes ago. when i am not with you. because i can handle it now because i like you okey. before she could finish her sentence i kissed her. 

i stopped the kiss and looked at her. i am so sorry that i doubted you y/n. I am just scared that someone use my love again. ari i would never use you, every minute i spend with you i like you more. so please believe me that i don't use you okey. i believe you. 

After 3 hours we are home.

this night was amazing y/n really make me feel like i am normal person. i don't know how she does it but i love it. i was so in my thought that i didn't saw that some of y/n her stuff was already sent, but it was sent here because the place where she is gonna live is ready in 8 days. y/n unpacked some stuff and then my I eyes landed on somethings i didn't expect to see by y/n her stuff.

it where books. a lot. i saw a book with all the poems of emily dickson. some books about health, some fiction. 

y/n since when do you read? i starting reading as a hobby when i was 17. i didn't expect it that you like reading. she laughed why do you think so? you don't look nerdy. i don't look nerdy, i can tell you ariana i am a little bit of a nerd she said laughing. so why a book with poems you are 20. yeah i know but poems are just beautiful because if you first read it you think that it is beautiful or boring but when you really look into a poem you find out what it really means and that's when you see how beautiful it really is. she said some more stuff but i was lost in how beautiful she was and how cute her nerd side is. and how smart she is because i saw her grade list too and it is pretty good. so i have really someone with beauty and the brains. 

i was just starring and looking at her lips and i could not handle myself and kissed her. she pulled away after a few seconds. so you didn't like my story about the poems she laughed. no i like it but your lips were too hot to resist. 

y/n went upstairs to make herself ready for bed. i was downstairs playing with the dogs and went a little bit through her stuff. i know it is not nice but she is so interesting that i want to know more. my eyes landed on a notebook. i open it and see poems not the ones that rhyme but are still beautiful. i decide to read one:

I look up and the moon is shining                                                                                                                           with all the stars around her