The broken heart Vol. 1

The deal

POV Kenma
After a while he answers with: "okay but only if you do something for me." I look at him a bit skeptical. So i ask him: "and that would be?" He looks at me in a mix of happy and nervous. "You go o a date with me, deal?" He respondes. I let go of him, pushes him a bit away and start walking out of the room while saying: "Call me how you want. I'm not gonna do that."

POV. Kuroo
Should i just do it? Should i just risc it and ask him to go on a date with me? Better now than never, right? "Okay but only if you do something for me" he looks at me up and down skeptical. " and that would be?" He look at me, still with the knowing in his look that he has the control of the situation. "You go on a date with me, deal?" Deal? I never wanted to make this a deal, i wanted to ask. Some times i even hate myself. He lets go of me, pushes me a little away, turn and starts walking while saying: "call me what you what. I'm not gonna do that." "But Kenma-" i fast follow him in the hallway. " come give me a change, just one date, please" without stopping he says: "I don't like dates. Come back another time." Still following him in a quite fast tempo i tell him: "but- you can even choose what we do or where we go, please just do something with me" a bit surprised about myself and how clingy i can be i slowly give up. Until-

POV. Kenma
Slowly he starts to annoy me. It's not like i don't want to do something with him, but I'm just scared that he let me go like all these others. Sure i want to have friends but there will be this one day where they want to come to my place and well my home is not the nicest or better the person that live with me there. I stop in the middle of the hallway turn to him and say to him: "listen," he stops as well and nods, " I don't like people, i love being home alone, i have a social phobia, I'm not mental stable, my sleep schedule is so bad that i sometimes not even or just one hour sleep" i pause for a minute. "You see i can't handle myself and you don't even want to come to my home, to that do i need to take care of my mom" i tear up while thinking of my home. Since my dad left my mom for an other woman about five years ago, i have to take care of her. She the only one i have left. Kuroo looks at me quiet with a face that doesn't really says anything. "Why am i even telling you?" I feel tears streaming down my face "You only want to get me in bed anyways like all the others made it happen!" He looks at me shocked. "W-what no," he sighs before saying, "fine i shouldn't force you to something." He carefully grabs my cheek and wipes the tear with his thumb away. "But if you change your mind,"  gives me a little paper, " you can tell me in school or text me, okay?" "Anyways, i don't wanna bother anymore." He said while letting go of me an looking behind me. "I guess I'm not needed here." He tells and leaves. I turn around to see Emi standing behind me looking a bit pissed after Kuroo. I look on the paper. " his number?" Emi ask. I nod and get my phone out to make him a contact called >Rooster head 🐔< and take a deep breath to calm again. "Disgusting" added Emi to her beginning of the sentence. I pack my phone away and start walking with Emi. "Hmm but he seems different went you're around. Strange. Usually when a person rejects him he would take some one new to make the person jealous, but already beget you to go out with him." she tells me. " he helped me earlier" i say not really thinking it's the big of a deal, even though he's how Emi says >not nice<. " yes I had a Panik attack on the toilet and he calmed me." I go on. With Emi going on judging Kuroo, we make our trip through the school. To be honest i don't think he's *just* the jerk, i think that he can also be nice, but maybe he got hurt or also has his problems. When my grandma was still alive she always said that heros and villains are made, not born.

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