Sorrow

Chapter 1-Lets begin

as a looked up with glassy,tired eyes i seen the beautifully perfect green eyes i had met all those times before.

this time a hint of sorrow.
I flinched at the sight as a felt liquid run down my cheek.

i was limp in his arms, i wish this was happening under better circumstances.

At this moment i missed my Drystan.
(dr-i-st-an)

ha.

i missed the boy who sent glared my way the boy who could calm me down without even trying.

i struggle to keep myself from falling.

Metaphorically and literally,
no one told me it would be this hard to stay awake after wanting to fall asleep for so long.

you're probably really confused right now and ready to move to another romance story, a story you've read over and over. A story just like my own.

Before i start my-

our story.

ill start by saying, you've heard it a million times,
different names, different Theme
same stupid love story

i never wanted some stupid prince to come and save me, i wanted to save myself.

i didn't want to push my bad deeds on a good person,
thats what happens, bad person needs a good person to save them,
i read it a million times myself

I didn't need to be saved i was fine suffering in my bad deeds, i deserved it at most.

i never wanted to be saved. i want-,wanted to suffer in my sorrow.

....,

lets get started shall we?

don't worry I'm not gonna bore u with ALL the details.

ha.

~last year~

i was walking along the water i like i always did when i needed an escape.
I loved the way it rushed up onto the shore and slowly faded back away, almost like it was scared of me?

i guess it made me feel powerful and erased the usual powerless feeling i always had in the back of my head.

i knew feeling weak made me vulnerable so i decided to ignore it.
fake it til u make it..i guess

i listened to the music from my headphones in one ear and the waves in the other

the one song i could listen to over and over again played as i silently sung along in my head.

yes the headphones were stolen but thats besides the point.

"the village by wrabel"

god this song made me want to cry.

lol.

i picked up my phone to press shuffle so i wouldn't cry, i didn't feel like it tonight.

"not tonight" i told myself speaking out loud.

I quickly noticed the time and my eyes widen at the message.

maybe crying was a good idea.

i quickly shut my phone and ran to the place i call 'home'. It never really felt like a home though, although i'm not sure what a home would feel like?

i brush my thoughts away as i quicken my steps, i had stopped running when i got to the start of my street.

'Im not scared' i reminded myself as i listen to the lyrics that were currently stuck in my head.