I Still Feel You, My Love

Chapter 1

It's been a year since Bea died and Kaz still hasn't been the same since her passing then. Maxine died about a month after Bea's death because of her cancer, but Kaz is trying to heal from it. She wishes to still feel Bea's energy only happen when one is on a blue moon, but sometimes Kaz hears her voice and looks for Bea

Nobody was there at the time and she still thinks about suicide, Liz is very worried about Kaz and told Ms. Westfall, who feared for her life "I'm worried about her right now, Kaz hasn't been the same since Bea's death and I'm worried for her mental health right now" that night when everyone was asleep Liz was on the couch until she woke up to these sounds coming from Kaz's cell. And she knocks on the door then she opens it and sees that Kaz is in bed sleeping then closes the door, and then Liz hears them again she turns around to a flashback to when Bea was taking her own life because she lost her daughter Debbie

The next day comes around "Good morning Kaz, how are you feeling today?" and Kaz gave a big hug "Good morning, I'm feeling okay today. Did you come into my room and climb into bed with me?" Liz was confused "I came in and checked up on you I didn't lay next to your love, maybe it was Bea checking up on you and making sure that you're okay"

"I wish she was still here" Kaz started to tear up a bit "Me too Kaz, we will miss her too. I think Bea did it because she wanted to protect you and keep you safe she would die for you. You were very special to her, I remember when before you came Bea wouldn't stop talking about you but then you finally came along. She was so scared to fall in love at first, with someone else. Especially with a woman"

"As soon as you came along Bea knew that she would trust love and now look at the bright side the both of you were together for a year and 2 weeks that's amazing! I haven't seen her that happy in a long time and every time Bea sees you or hears your voice, she starts to smile on her face and she talks about you every day. Bea loved you so much, we both know that she is at peace now and with her daughter back again"

Kaz feels good about everything that Liz was saying. Blessed that she spent so much time with Bea and loved her every day, Kaz believed that Bea knew that day would come and expected why in the 2 weeks leading up to her death, for doing so much stuff together

And Kaz hasn't been in Bea's cell since her death, she moved into her cell to feel closer to her and feeling so much closer to Bea than ever before. She grabbed her sketchbooks and looked at them. It's been a while but it's great to remember for Kaz to see Bea. It's not the end and It's not a goodbye for the both of them, because one day they will meet again

The first night began in Bea's cell and Kaz was having a dream, it was about Bea. They were together and holding hands like in the old days, and Kaz gets to meet Bea's daughter Debbie for the first time. They were doing a girl's day, going out shopping at the mall and going out for lunch. They were having the best time until Bea looked at Kaz with a smile "Kaz, it's time to wake up now, my love" she kept saying until Kaz woke up in medical and her neck was hurting very bad "What's going on, What's happening?" The nurse told her that Kaz was trying to kill herself. But Kaz doesn't remember anything at all, she does remember going to bed early. Thank god for Liz for saving her life

A couple of days later Kaz came out of medical and she got together with her crew. They walk around the prison-like normal, and nothing happens. At the end of the day, Kaz went to H1 and everyone was happy to see her back "How are you feeling, love" Kaz smiles

"I'm feeling fine now thanks to you" She hugged Liz "I believe it's Bea because something woke me up and when I knew something was wrong" that's when Kaz realized something, the time she was dreaming, but she was in heaven and Kaz was dead for 5 whole mins. At the time she was killing herself but Kaz doesn't remember anything, Liz and Kaz were in shock. Bea wanted to see Kaz and spent time with her before Kaz woke up in a medical room. She was glad that Bea is checking on her and making sure that Kaz is okay from the spirit world, Kaz has never believed in ghosts until now

A week after there was drama between Allie and her new girlfriend Marie Winters, she got Allie into drugs again "You don't know many fucking times I got her off the gear" their fight got so bad that Kaz bombed Marie's cell while she is in there then the lockdown begins and Kaz comes back to H1 then gets in her cell, she sees a box on her bed Kaz closes the door and opens the box inside it. It was Bea's stuff in it

Kaz was looking through the box and Mr. Jackson came in "What happened to Winters?" there was a moment of silence then told him that she bomb Winters's cell but got lucky for not going in the slot, he knew that Kaz has been through a lot in the last year and losing Bea "Should I gone the slot for that" he let her pass this time but next not so lucky