I Still Feel You, My Love

Chapter 21

After a long wait of 42 weeks and 3 days the baby is coming on its way. Bea was giving birth and there was a lot of pushing but the end of it all. They can finally meet their beautiful and healthy baby girl into the world with a big welcome hug, then the tears start coming down on their faces and hearing her cry for the first time "I haven't heard this cry since Debbie was born" after everything calms down and then the baby gets to have her quiet time. Then getting the chance to get the baby to get some food, it was hard for her at first but Bea got the baby to feed

The baby making the cutest and sweetest sounds ever heard, the both of them smiled at each other and kissed a couple of times "You did it, my love. You finally did it" Bea kissed her on the cheek "We both did it" Kaz got the chance to hold the baby for the first time after feeding and she was just over the moon to see this magical creature. Then there is the biggest and the most beautiful smile that Bea has ever seen, it's like the day that Kaz got released from Wentworth

Just seeing her falling in love and talking to her then the baby responding with her little baby sounds to her second mum was heartwarming to see them like this "Hey Kaz, take your shirt off and put her on your chest" Kaz looked up with a weird face "Why?" She had a laugh at Kaz "It helps with stress levels go down when the baby is on skin to skin and she can able to hear the mother's heartbeat"

She took off her shirt and put the baby on her chest then put the shirt on top as a blanket and Kaz sat down on the couch with her. All of the scars that she had from her father were showing but then Bea got caught from looking at them and she looks away with a smile "I saw that Smith"

"You just look so gorgeous with those scars and on top of that you look even stunning with the baby on your chest" Kaz was starting to smile to herself then looked down with red cheeks and a little giggle "I'm ashamed of them, I hate them and I want them gone" she was going about it and was getting very upset about them. Then it went quiet for a while "Kaz, scars are amazing and beautiful, when I thought they were incredible and uh different. I'm not just saying that because I'm your wife I'm saying it because I love you so much, you have seen mine"

"I think you should own them and love them because they are the story from past not future" then the baby responding to them and agreeing to Bea and making them smile back on their faces "Talking about these scars are like that just because of my father for what he did to me when I was little girl and I wish I had someone like you to talk with then let it go away from him but it's past I can't change it. I just need to focus on my beautiful wife and our little angel"

Then the name that came into Kaz's head wouldn't be perfect for the baby "Avery Grace Proctor Smith". She says it out of the blue but has a smile on Kaz's face and Bea loves the name, Avery sneeze a couple of times "Bless you my sweet angel" but she didn't like it and started to cry, Kaz was rubbing her back and walk around the room to help Avery calm down

Avery cried for a good 10 minutes straight and Kaz changed her diaper for the first time then put on her first outfit after "She looks so adorable in that outfit" Avery goes to bed and to get her some sleep but she started crying again and wanted to be held "I got it Kaz" but Kaz didn't back down "Bea, just relax. You just give birth"

Kaz picked her up again and sat down on the couch then put Avery on her chest "I need to cuddle with her too, you know" and Bea was right about that one "I know Bea, you had a rough pregnancy and carried our little angel for a little over 9 months. I want to treat you to relax and enjoy yourself" Bea was rolling her eyes with a smile and gets her water

The nurse came in to check on the mother and the baby "How is everything here" the both of them were good and they were doing just fine. She told them everything that they get to know and when to feed her "She will be due to be fed every other hour" after the nurse lifted

They had to talk and have a good laugh. "Can I cuddle with her please, my love?" She gave her to Bea and to get more cuddles, Avery made some sounds and opened her eyes. "Hey Kaz looked at her, Avery is opening her eyes for the first time" her eyes were ocean blue just like her mother's "She got your eyes". She looking at Avery's eyes and didn't see it, Kaz put her shirt back on and tidy up the room

That night Bea was getting some sleep and Kaz was awake and took care of Avery for Bea. She was on Kaz's chest without the shirt on, the baby was happily sleeping on her second mum and making happy noises. Kaz saw something in the corner of her eye and when she looked to see what it was. There was a flashing light from the bathroom door and then realized that it was a night light just going off

By the morning Kaz was sleeping on the couch next to Bea for a little while and she was having a little cuddle but at the same time the baby was getting some breakfast. Kaz woke up and seeing them together made her tear up a little "Good Morning beautiful" they both kissed a couple of times then Kaz gave some love and kisses to the baby "How is my sweetness little angel today" After breakfast Kaz gets to hold her with excitement while Bea eats her breakfast then calls and tells her mother that the baby was born

When she heard about the news and she was going out the door to come to see her then Kaz called her mother to let her know about the new member of the family and was excited to see her and was going to stop by the hospital this afternoon to see her first grandchild for the for the first time ever

The noises that the baby was making at her and smiles then laughed at her first time ever "Love, did you see that. Oh my god she's smiling at me" she helps but smiles so big and so Beautiful inside and out, Kaz was over the moon and just making Bea smile to see her beautiful wife love and adore their baby so much then Kaz started to get emotional and started to cry. "I never thought that I would be a mother in my life because how I was raised and um" it was hard for her about her past even though Bea knew all about it, Bea held her hand "It's okay my love"

"For so long now I hated men and didn't trust them because of my father for what he did to me and I didn't like women for a long time because of my mother until I got into the red right hand, and then I met you for the first time. That changed everything and look at us now, living our best life ever and we have a beautiful healthy baby girl with all the prayers that we both needed in our lives. I prayed to god that this baby will be healthy, safe and happy. I prayed for my wife and for our little one to be safe at birth, it's been heard and here we are. Here we are, now I'm a mother and married with a beautiful wife. I'm so blessed for you and our sweet baby girl"

The both were crying their hearts out from her speech "Kaz, Avery is the luckiest girl in the world to have you as her mother and she loves you so much, you're going to be a great mother Kaz" the nurse came in to check on Bea and the baby then she asked the question "So I see that the father hasn't up at the birth last night and uh" the both of them looked at other and giggled "Karen is the father of my child, everything should be on file" says with a smile and nodded at the nurse

The nurse smiles and takes a look at the files that they had "Okay great, thanks ladies" then lifted again. Avery was making some noises and faces at them "The face she was making, the noises are so perfect" Avery was holding her finger and putting it in her mouth then opening her eyes "Hello my sweet angel, how are you doing" Kaz started to humming to her and it made the baby more noises and their got louder by the second