It's Just in Her Mind

One

"Ria , meet your tita Samantha" daddy is really out of his mind

"Greet her Ria. I am expecting you to respect , love and consider her as your mother from now on"

gulat ako sa rebelasyon ng aking ama dahil hindi ko akalain na agad siyang makakahanap ng kapalit ng aking Ina

"What!? Are you insane dad? No , I only have one mother and that's mommy Clarissa"

Masama ang loob ko sa kanya dahil pakiramdam ko , kayamanan lang ni dad ang habol ng babaeng ito sa kanya

"I know you still can't move on and accept that your mom is gone. Anak , we need Samantha. I know you need mother's love and she will give you that at may anak din siya , I know you'll get along with her"

That made me flinch again. May anak siya? Okay dad , what the hell are you thinking?

kung mag-isa lang siya , tatanggapin ko pa siguro pero may anak siya so nevermind. Kahit magalit saken si daddy , hindi ko sila tatanggapin dahil alam ko na kung anong mangyayare saken kapag tinanggap ko sila ngunit parang wala na akong magagawa dahil buo na ang desisyon ni dad

" pag tinanggap ko sila dad , what will happen to me? magiging ako yung parang sampid sa pamilya natin , ganon? Dad , alam ko na to eh. Madami na akong nakitang ganito and ayokong dumating sa point na sila na ang magiging legal at ako ang magiging outcast sa pamilyang eto"

that's real , magiging bossy lang si Samantha and nobody knows kung ano talaga ang ugali nila. Baka mabait lang din sila pag nakaharap si dad and pag wala na , ako ang kawawa

"No , no iha. Hindi kami ganon , we will not cross the limit. Kayo pa rin ni Clarissa ang tunay na pamilya ni Rico , kailangan lang talaga ako ng tatay mo para mapalaki kang kompleto ang pamilya"

she explained to me her intention but I'm not convinced , sa una lang to magaling at mabait eh. I'm sure with that

"i will not agree to your relationship with my dad until you've proved and convinced me that you have no bad intention with our family"

and after saying those line to them that left their mouth opened , I went to my room to think about our situation right now

" i hope you're still with us mom. It hurts that dad changed you as his wife immediately without knowing my opinion. Wala pang isang taon mom pero mukhang totally healed na si dad and nakamove on na sa pagkawala mo"

kausap ko ang larawan ng aking ina na kasama ako bago siya mawala.

"mom , please help me heal from this painful battle. help me free you so that you can now rest in peace. Alam kong hanggang ngayon andito ka pa rin at hindi makapunta sa pupuntahan mo dahil nag aalala ka sakin. Please give me strength to accept the fact that you can't be with us anymore"

i was shocked when the door of my room opened and dad entered. Umupo siya sa tabi ko

"Anak , I know it still hurts but we need to accept that your mom won't come back anymore. Nahihirapan din ako anak , nahihirapan akong tignan kang nasasaktan. Alam kong iniisip mo na parang wala lang sakin yung pagkamatay ng mommy mo pero anak pinapalakas ko lang ang loob ko dahil alam kong nahihirapan ka"

I didn't know that he feels this way. Dad was crying so  I hugged him and said sorry dahil hindi ko naconsider yung nararamdaman niya and nagconclude agad ako

"Pinapalakas ko lang ang loob ko anak dahil kung parehas tayong magluluksa , wala tayong pagkukuhanan ng lakas. Pasensya ka na anak kung kailangan kong maghanap ng makakasama ulit dahil hindi ko alam kung makakaya ko bang palakihin kang mag isa"

masyadong mabigat sa dibdib ang lahat ng mga salitang naririnig ko galing sa aking ama

"ayoko lang naman pong maranasan yung napapanood at nababasa ko na inaapi ng mga pangalawang pamilyan. Dad natatakot po akong baka mawalan ka ng oras sakin dahil magkakaroon ka ng pamilya kay tita Sam"

totoo yun , sobrang takot akong mawalan ng oras at pake sa akin si dad. Nawalan na ako ng ina at ayoko ng mawalan pa ng ama

"no anak , hinding hindi ko gagawin yun pangako"

i hope you would do your promise dad , dahil hinding hindi kita mapapatawad pag mas kinampihan mo sila kesa sa akin

"you should try to catch up and bond with Shania para hindi kayo mailang sa isa't isa"

maybe that would not harm me , wala namang mawawala sa akin kung susubukan ko

"bababa ka na ba dad? I'll come with you and I'll talk to them"

sabay kaming bumaba ni dad at pagkababa namin ay agad akong lumapit kanila tita sam para humingi ng pasensya

"I'm sorry for my attitude a while ago tita. I'm just scared that I might lose my dad and I don't want that to happen"

there's really a strange feeling when i'm talking to her. Parang labag sa kalooban ko ang kausapin siya

"its okay , i know you love your dad so much that you don't want him to have another family. I understand where you're coming from"

may nagtutulak talaga sa akin na wag maniwala sa babaeng ito

"its okay of you still won't believe me , but give us chance to prove ourselves that we have no other intention than loving you and your dad"

I will let this pass , if this woman right here will get what's mine and block my way as the legal family , I will not hesitate to throw them out of our lives

"give me time to convince myself and think about what is happening" i told her and then I faced my dad

"I need to go to my room to have my peaceful night dad , good night"

hinalikan ko lang sa pisngi ang aking ama at nginitian ko ang mag ina bago tinungo ang aking silid upang mag isip isip ng mga bagay na makakapagpayapa sa aking utak

I can't understand myself , there's something that keeps on telling me that I shouldn't trust them but half of me is telling that I should give them a chance

wala rin naman siguro masama if bigyan ko sila ng chance

after thinking so deep , i decided to go to bed to rest my mind