From the beginning i knew there was something different about me. I would like to do the normal things that normal kids would do. I always wanted to be like them too. I wanted to fit in just so i don't stand out. All the time they tell you when your kids that standing out is a good thing. But no really knows how it feels to be the one that stands out and gets made fun of for it. I was always called fat when growing up when i really wasn't, now that i look back at photos but that's the thing. People made me believe that i was and it made insecure. As a child and still now i have never taken off my shirt in front of people other than the guys in the locker room. Judgement was my biggest fear. Im trying to overcome that now and step number one would be writing this book. I know I'm not the prettiest looking and I'm still not the most person in the world but i am still scared for the hate that comes my way. I was always the kid who just had enough friends to be called popular, but no one really knew me. Yes, people knew my name, and what grade i was in but that was about it.No one knew my hobbies, my talents, my secrets. I tried to fit in as much as I could. I tried to make as many friends too. But it didn't come to me as easy as the other kids. I just always felt like I was gonna get judged by everyone. I felt like that was the worst thing that can happen. Judgment. When people profile you based on your looks. It was the most common thing in society, and I hated every bit about it. I know I do it sometimes too, but I try to give everyone an equal first impression because, at the end of the day, we did not choose how we look. Although we do get to choose the way we dress, and you can tell a lot about a person by the way that they dress. Each person has a different vibe. Humans have an expression of that vibe in clothing.
