My big brother is a sick person

Lies cover truth

"Milady, are you going out?" Missy came out of the kitchen just as I was about to leave. I turned around, facing Missy. "Yeah, just going to meet with a friend." I tried to sound as sweet as I possibly could. "The Seiki lad, right?" She smiled. "Have fun. I won't say anything to your brother." With that, she walked back into the kitchen humming a song. It took  me a moment before I left the house. Missy was strangely chirpy this morning, but I was greatful to her. I wanted to avoid brother, especially after last night. 

I walked down the path to see Seiki already there. He turned his head and smiled at me, waving a hand. I smiled, picking up my pace as I walked over to him. "Aya" He said with a smile as he caressed my face in his hands. Just as his lips touched mine, I remembered what brother said. I felt my heart sink. What if brother was right? What if Makoto did like Seiki? Does that make me a ad person? "Aya, what's wrong?" Seiki looked at me with concern, seeing my saddened face. "It's just...brother and I had a talk last night." I said, hardly looking at Seiki. "What happened?" He asked, sitting me down on a bench beside him. "Well, I asked him if he knew anything about Makoto, seeing as she went after him." I lowered my head. "And?" I shook my head. "And he started saying stuff about me not being there for Makoto and that I didn't ever consider her feelings." Seiki raised an eyebrow. "What do you mean?" I looked at Seiki, trying not to show any pain. " That maybe Makoto liked you and that neither of us considered her feelings before pursuing anything. The worst part is, it's true. I never asked Makoto how she felt about anything." I shook my head, shaking off any tears that wanted to fall. Seiki grabbed my arm, turning me to face him. "No, Aya, don't listen to what that idiot says." Seiki pulled my head into his chest. "Aya, you're brother....he isn't right in the head. I've been holding it back for a while now, but I can't anymore, not when i know you could be in danger." I pulled my head back, looking at Seiki. "What do you mean? Brother has always protected me." He shook his head. "Aya, I always saw something off about him. From the fact he never let you out, to every time you told me he was just sick. That day....he only proved me to be right." Seiki had a look of concern over his face. 

"I've been thinking about it a lot, Aya, and I really don't think it's safe for even you anymore." Seiki looked away. "Are you...." My eyes widened. "Aya, did he actually tell you if he saw Makoto?" Seiki asked. I shook my head, realising what Seiki was getting at. Seiki went silent for a moment. "Just as I thought." I stood up, pulling away from Seiki. "What are you saying?" It was useless, I knew exactly what Seiki was getting at, and the worst part was, he had a point and reason to think it. "Aya, I don't think you're safe around your brother anymore." Seiki stood up, reaching a hand out to me. "N...no" I couldn't hear anymore of it. I turned away from Seiki and ran, ran as fast as I could. 

So much started running through my head. Brother was just sick, just sick! No matter how many times I told myself that, I knew that deep in my heart, I believed Seiki. I couldn't except it though. That was my brother, my only family I have left. He always took care of me and protected me, so why? Tears fell from my eyes as I ran towards the bridge. I just couldn't bare the thought of brother being nothing but a lie all this time. 
I could hear Seiki calling after me, but I ignored it and kept running for the bridge. When I finally reached it, I ran under it where there was a small dry area for me to sit and be alone. I sat on the rock and stared out into the river as I heard Seiki running over the bridge, calling my name. When I heard his voice fade, I buried my head in my arms and cried. 

Why would Seiki say such awful things about brother? I know he didn't like brother, but brother.....brother is a....he's just....sick. I couldn't fool myself anymore, I knew Seiki was right, but I refused to except it. Brother was scary when he got mad, but eh wouldn't....kill, would he? I just didn't know anymore. Everything Seiki said made sense, and I couldn't deny that, but why did it have to be brother? What happened to him to make him like this? Why was he so sick? Why had I let myself lie to myself for so long? I knew it all along. I knew what brother was capable of, I knew. I never said anything, but the boy in the foster care....I saw what brother did that day. That's when I told myself, "Brother is just a sick person". After a while, I started to believe that. I tricked myself, lying to myself, blinding myself from the harsh truth. Now Seiki has moved the lie, revealing the truth I always knew, I don't know what to do. I haven't known brother to kill anyone since, but I wouldn't put Kaito's death past him. 

When I finally lifted my head, it was getting dark. I checked my phone to see how long it had been to see twenty missed calls from Seiki, as well as six text asking where I was. Has I fallen asleep? I was surprised Missy hadn't rang me, but in all honesty, I didn't want to go home. I sat there, the night cold getting to me. Where should I go? I didn't want to go home, I didn't want to see brother. I couldn't bring myself to ring Seiki either. I wasn't mad at him, I just couldn't bare to hear him talk about brother like that. I didn't want to hear it. 

I stepped back out onto the pavement, looking around. It was getting dark, and I was still pretty far from home. I couldn't walk back on my own, not this late. I couldn't ring myself to ring Missy asking for a ride home either. I walked around for a bit before it got too cold. I walked over to the river, where Seiki and I always met up. All I had to do was ring Missy, but i just couldn't bring myself to go home. Instead, I sat on the grass, waiting for the sun to raise. "Aya!" I heard a voice call. I stood to my feet and turned around, seeing Seiki looking tired and exhausted. "S..Seiki?" He stormed over, grabbing my wrist. "Why didn't you answer my calls? I've been worried sick!" He shouted. I tried not to cry, but a few tears managed to slip. As the tears fell, Seiki let out a sigh, losing grip of my wrist. "I was so worried about you, don't do it again." He said softly, pulling my head to his chest and kissing it gently. "Seiki, I'm sorry...I just..." I managed to stop the tears, feelings calm in his embrace. "I know, Aya. He's your brother, it was wrong of me. In fact, I think maybe I might be" I cut him off. "No, don't say it." I pulled my head away and looked at him. "You've got no reason to apologies, Seiki. I just couldn't except the truth." He looked at me with shock. "You mean...." He paused as I slowly nodded my head. "And I can't go home tonight, I just can't" Seiki smiled. "Stay with me the night then." I looked at him surprised and a little hesitant, but soon agreed to Seiki's offer.