tw: short (?) vent and mentions of wanting death
i really just want to disappear from this earth and not have a second thought about it, i wish i could just have the confidence to end it all but then again i am so afraid of losing what i have, friends, family and fans, i want to be able to go to save up to go to places or buy whatever i desire..
i just want to do it without thoughts telling me 'your acting like a depressed emo gacha kid'
am i cringe ?
